Parts are edited and ages to cover up the real identity of the individuals. The story how ever is true. A gut wrenching, heartbreaking love story. Out of body... that's how I felt when looking down an empty barrel that could possibly end my life. I stood between the man I knew and the face I have seen a thousand times in the mirror. I knew one wrong movement, breathe, or utter of a word he didn't like could possibly be the end to me to us. I felt like I was my own guardian angel watching over myself carefully watching how my breathe clumped in my throat. I saw my eyes widen and lips go dry. I felt my heart fall.