Pain envelops me worse than I've ever felt before, like a wave hitting the shore and I'm a sand castle too close. It hits and hits again, like the pain was in rhythm with my heart, like this was a punishment for the way my heart pitter-patters when Ponyboy's around. Like it was now punishing me with that same pulse. Or Johnny's in love with Ponyboy and his spine is kinda fucked up.