OBLIGATION i.e a duty, a responsibility, pact my dearest, When i was in grade two the teacher asked us what we wanted to be when we grew up. 'a pilot with the hand of a pirate, head of a doctor and half of me should be a rich person'. when i was in grade ten my best friend fell for me hard but i had no such feelings for him but proclaimed i was in 'love' with him. he had helped me through a lot including my self-harming phase so the least i could do was love him back right? as time went on i became used to being in 'love' with him. at the age of 16 when our 'love' and friendship began deteriorating i realized i was obligated to him so i had to love him. Now i'm 19 and i have come to understand many things. people look down on women for working mainly on the basis of their being a woman. Men don't get enough credit. being yourself means hurting everyone around you. i came to an agreement with my mother and although i was unsure of if i would be able to achieve my part of the agreement but as time went on i began standing on a more steady ground. everything would have worked my way, i would finally have what i wanted most from my life : control. then it happened. you fell in 'love' with me. i hope one day you will realize that you too were in love with me as an obligation. it's okay. i know this is a lot to take in but i want you-no, i NEED you to know that i never wanted any of it to happen. i never wanted you to get hurt. sincerely, Jefra. *just start reading the story. i think u'll like it.....or not (in which case this book can go diving into hell) but like yeah. oh and just so you know this is and ongoing story and i'm still writing it. xoxo*
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