I'm a child innocent and free, living in the moment of what life has to offer me.
I'm a teenager experiencing change. Change in my body, my heart and my ways.
All along the way footprints rooted down. Some permanent some changing but following me around.
I'm a mother, a wife a sister and friend. Creating stories, love and life from beginning to end.
I kiss scrapes, I am the rock. I hug away fears. As the years go by the pride I feel brings me to tears.
I am a woman, a lover, a keeper of secrets. And again, my footprints are getting deeper.
One day it begins to feel far away. People, memories, words I can no longer say.
Some days a dream, a room I don't know. I recognize some but others come and go.
Now I am alone, in my thoughts left behind.
In and out of reality, I hear them say it's my mind.
My footprints are stuck deep in this world. But I don't remember the boy and the girl.
Or the man that smiles with kind eyes, and the one who comes that always cries.
They call me mom; they call me grandma. They look frightened and sad. A park of me wants to hug them, a part of me feels bad.
I know somethings wrong, but I can't make sense of it. What happened to the rock, the mother and wife? My body is here but I'm no longer part of this life.
This I know, this disease has taken me. Remember my footprints, all of them please.
Soon it gets dark, quiet and lonely. I yearn for something powerful, yet I don't know what. I wish this bad dream would end so I could wake up.
Until the day I am free, where I am released from this prison. Until the day I am me, with the choice given.
I will look down on the many footprints I've left behind.
Remembering my life again with no regrets in mind.
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