Class with Jason was seriously not the way I thought it would turn out to be.
He was calm, noted down all the things our teacher asked us to do and he never did, not once, look my way.
You see the thing is, that Jason is the kind of guy that loves to look at you and make you see that he is interested in you, he keeps on looking at you until you see him and you set your eyes on him. But today that wasn't the thing, he always teased me and always made me laughs, I mean yes I still hate him, but I loved that he kept on giving me attention, I felt as if he cares about me.
But now, he is so blank, he is no fun with me, he isn't Jay Jay anymore,
he is mad at me.
The teacher called my name few times and he seemed mad, I looked up at him and he managed to be right in a front of my desk,
"What th-" politeness Minna, "Yes sir?"
He had the look on his face, and Mr. oh so handsome Chase never had the look.
"Mind sharing with us your art?"
I looked around and everyone has his eyes on me, I don't like this much of an attention, not really, I checked Jason's desk, but he wasn't looking at me like everyone was,
Wow, he really hates me.
"Art?"I blurted out, Mr.Chase held my note book and showed to me the sketching that I did on it.
"Oh you mean this art, it's actually no art Chase, It's just a sketch of a" I looked closely, I didn't know what the hell was I thinking while sketching a full moon with it details, "uh a full m..moon?"
"Dreamy" someone coughed.
Icouldn't control the twist my body did, when the voice of that someone was hims.
"Asshole" I spat right into his face.
And let me tell you, that wasn't such a good idea, after I heard a few gasps, and after my teacher kicked me out, oh and Jason too, and he told us that he wanted to talk to both of us after the end of his class,
so here I was sitting on the floor next to the biggest asshole ever on this freaking school!
"Asshole" I muttered after a while, I mean, I was mad.
"Bitch" Jason whispered in my ear, I shivered, he made it on propose.
"You know what Jason, stay away from me, just ignore me the way that you ignored me inside, and well through all this day, what the hell would I except from a guy like you anyway, beside that's one of the reasons why we are calling each other names now." I pushed myself away a little, now losing all my control.
"Would you shut up? you are the one who broke up with me."
What the.... what the actual fuck. Why did he come up with this even? Why now?
I looked at him really shocked, he had his head between his legs. I didn't say any other world just looked at him really speechless, I never mention this subject and I never mentioned to anyone else before even.
He moved and looked up at me, I was still frozen,
"What?"
"Uh.. Nothing really, Jay..I mean Jason... Just call me when Mr.Chase gets out of his class I'm going to take a walk outside." I got up and actually was running to the door, I felt the room getting tighter, I couldn't breath, all the images from that day crept back into my memory and slapped me right into my face.
Him...Her...
I laid back down on the grass, I tried to breath the way my mom always tells me to do when I'm angry.
But I felt a body relax next to me on the grass, I kept my eyes shut.
"You know, you always hunt me with those eyes of yours, nights and days, I can never get enough of seeing your smile, so don't be mad at me okay?" He whispered closely, I could feel his breath tickling my neck and believe me he was close, so damn close that I didn't dare open my eyes even.
"Jason..." I sighed.
What can I do? I still have feelings for the douche, but he wasn't worth it.
"Don't ruin this please." He whispred closely into my ear.
"Ruin this? But Jason we already are ruined, this, this whole thing is just not okay." I sighed, and sat up, holding my legs close to my chest.
I think this whole thing made me feel insecure, and in so much time, today, this week, I felt insecure.
Jason sat up too, and got closer to me, if it was possible even, he sat right behind me, his legs around me, pushing my back closer to his chest and embracing me with his strong arms.
The tears ran down my cheeks, I couldn't hold back anymore, but I wasn't going to let go all of my emotions either,
"Let go Jason, leave me alone you idiot" I loved this feeling, I missed him.
I couldn't help it but lean closer to his chest and hold his shirt tight in my hands and sob quietly all my emotions.
"I would never let you go, shh " He whispered kissing my head.
This situation lasted for quite a while, the bell rang and I was still in his arms, him telling me how much I mean to him and me crying my eyes out.
"What is going on here?"
I looked up noticing Jake's eyes on me and Jason, I stood up fast and ran to Jake, he was shocked at first, but then he held me tighter and hugged me.
"Why is she crying Jay? What did you do to her? Can't you just stay away and stop fucking around her?" This was the first time I heard Jake this mad.
Jason got up and I heard him say behind me to Jake, "Shut up Jake and mind your own business" He was going to blow up anytime soon now.
But Jake pushed the subject further, that's when I knew that things won't end well today for none of us,
"She is my business! You my brother need to stay away from her!" Jake was speaking in Jason's face and I felt the need to escape from his hold, so I did, but have been forced into Jason's chest harshly.
"You idiot! Stop acting as if you own the place, or as if you know anything about us! You know nothing!! Not about me, about Noah, Mom, or even fucking me!! She is the only thing that held me and still holding me together since you and dad left!!Since you never showed up until he was freaking dead! Even when mom sent you invitations and tickets to visit us!!"
Jason was screaming loud, I heard his heart beating faster and faster, his breath stuck in his lungs, he was suffering, of all us people he was the most one suffering, and Jake did not have the right to be mad about these stuff, because he really doesn't know what happened over the years and what we, all of us, have been through.
"Okay you guys need to stop!" I pushed Jason's hands off me as I pushed my tears off my face, my emotions where all over the place, that everyone got the feelings of giving up and letting go of everything inside, of them emotions.
"You, both of you, used to love each other so much, nothing used to separate you! Don't let this situation push you away further than you guys even are! Please...I love you, both of you, you are my childhood best friends, you have always been there for me, don't make me regret knowing you guys, because right now right here, I started having second thoughts, we already missed on too much don't you think?"
They both had weird looks on their faces, I think I made my point.
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