The Darkest Day

Insignificant I am laying in discomfort,

Aching joints are numbed by my hunger,

Time has no meaning in this place of darkness,

My will is lost to grief I cannot move no more,

I've tired of the light, constant cold light,

The darkness is a willing companion,

Shading me from the world,

To die would be so easy,

To die.

Why is it so cruel to wet my face?

I did not ask for pain,

I did not want to cry,

Nothing brings me joy,

The highs are gone,

Time has no meaning anymore.

To die would be so painless

To die.

Empty is the world now, almost!

For I am here and you are not.

Pictures jumble till one stands out,

Our bright happy faces, no pain no sorrow.

Memories blur, tears flow once more,

Hate builds, hate consumes

No one to hate, just pain.

To die is my dream now

To die.

Voices, reminders in my head of you,

Are you here?

A rush of heat flows over me.

Presence within my dark place,

I feel you here with me,

I hurt so much, I'm lost

If I die i will be with you,

To die.

My soul feels lifted, I smell you,

A glow, a warmth within me,

I feel that your not gone,

Devine or not I sense you,

Pain inside consumed me,

My time has not yet come,

You show me I have children,

So what if I were gone?

To die would be so painful.

To die.

I pull away the darkness,

I brave away my tears,

I make my self a breakfast,

The first it feels like years,

Get hugs from all my children,

That melt away my fears,

Morning sun awakes me,

Daylight shows my beard

I know I feel much better,

I almost made this rhyme.

To die is not my time yet

To die

I know that I'm not dreaming

I am standing by your grave

You know that we all love you,

We know that you were brave

For now ill see you later

Until my time will come

I can walk away from darkness

Now that I've overcome

To live I'll live

I'll live to carry on

Foot note: Most of us in this world will have lost some body close, family and love ones and also special friends, I am no different, by that I mean I have lost grand parents and really good friends. However this special poem is a dedication to my wonderful loving wife as we heartbreakingly lost our 18 year old daughter to Cancer in 2009. We all found our selves in such dark places for so long, We will always feel the loss no matter how much time passes, and even now from time to time the pain still overwhelms. The time will come one day when we may feel we can carry on without feeling bad about being happy.

Remember your loved ones you lost, not just at church or at holidays and aniversarys, keep their special memories alive, talk about them and live your life while you still have one.

Written by myself David stark in loving memory and painful loss of my daughter Sarah. My fallen angel XxX 24,06,1990 to 24,05,2009

ALSO A SPECIAL THANKS TO CLIK SARGENT FOR THE SPECIAL CARE THEY PROVIDED THROUGH SARAH'S TOUGHEST MOMENTS

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