"You're not made for this life Michael, You're soft and emotional, this lifestyle will chew you up and spit you out harder than you can handle." Michael knew he was right, he knew that if he had the opportunity to leave he should, but too much is holding him back, too much is keeping him from leaving and never in a million years would he consider it. or: A bullet in his boyfriend's head and infatuation for new man in a new gang doesn't sit well in Michael's head but he manages somehow.