UPDATE: I no longer have a crush on Nick, so this is sorta not about him anymore tbh (also the first few chapters are kinda dumb) but this has turned into a story I really enjoy writing! I found NO Nick Wilkins fanfics so I decided to make one myself! This should hopefully be a lot better than my other fanfics, but then again, I'm writing this at 3:49 in the morning. THE TIMELINE WILL BE WEIRD! ALSO Nick has a sister in this so I guess this an AU? Yes. It is now an AU. ***TW/CW: book contains themes of self-harm, eating disorders, violence, possible mentions of assault in the future, etc. probably no smut though for now because I'm uncomfortable writing it-- and I'm sure many people are uncomfortable reading it!*** OC is based on me because I'm a simp. Scar, Casey, and Millie are based on my friends because they're awesome