Cupid Of Vengeance

old habbits

So many mornings I woke up confused
In my dreams, I do anything I want to you
My emotions are naked, they're taking me out of my mind

Crimsent s pov
Well that was one long night
And I am kinda suprised how well scar go along with my friends
It scares me sometimes
(lol)
And yesterday she didn't even want to leave and I had to drag her out because she had to go to the university the next morning
Sucks to be her..

And me on the other hand don't have to go to the hospital today
So i decided to dust the old hobbies I had today as I was alone in the house

And today morning I woke up with a nightmare
About him,idk y this happens tho
After we lost contact this is not the first time when he was in my dreams
God knows how much I wish to see him outside my dreams
Hearing the whole story yesterday is actually bothering me today

So i decided to dust out my buried hobbies today
Comming to think of it I never really had much time after my parents death and now ik that my work and time didn't go waste
Looking at this house,my life ,my Job I know that I have succeeded in my career

The house

I now have everything i dreamed of as a teen
Well most of it

I decided to start with the poetry
I used to write small poems when I was little and I was good but not really great

(Btw guys,there are originaly my poems so feel free to check out my ig channel if you wanna see more)
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After that i decided to dance for a song that used to be my favourite for a really long time

I felt really relieved and happy today
Then i dance
I can feel the wind in my fair
My body flowing with the rhythms of the song
Me eyes follow my hands as it moves
The feeling is just so peaceful
I forgot abt everything around me at this moment

After that I took a cold shower it was already 3pm and today was rather cloudy than bright
Scarlet is gonna reach home with in am hour so i went on a ride on my bike to top of a empty hill
The climate was perfect
It makes me feel that the world is atlast at peace
I saw lost in my own thoughts when i felt a small water drop on my face
A small smile appeared on my face unknowingly
My mind felt so peaceful after a long time
I was soaking under the rain when I heard my phone ringing
It was my baby sis
She called me because she reached home and found it empty
I left as soon as the call ended
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I prepared aloo paratha for dinner today and after dinner we talked for some time and scar left to study after that

I was alone again but i really enjoy it tho

It used to be lonely ,i won't oppose that
But as time passed by i realised that feeling alone or lonely is not about being only one in the room
And it's not compulsory to feel lonely when you are alone
Look around
Look at the world
Every one is alone sometimes
Rn I might be the only one in the room but I am happy
Happy with myself
Happy for my achievements,happy for the life i could give my sister

I have everything I want
But the things I need are different
Rn all I can do is believe in my future and hope that everything will turn out fine
Hope to find my happiness...
And music really helps....
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