Why does everyone hate me so much? Am I not talented enough to deserve love - Namjoon
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Thank you so much for teaching me to love myself Namjoon. Now let me teach you how to love yourself.
Ranks💜-
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We started talking randomly about all the memories we made when we were roommates before debut.
"Remember, we used to sit in front of the TV watching award shows and thinking when we would get one."
"Yeah hyung, and remember when we first got the debut award we both hugged each other and cried our eyes out."
"To celebrate it, we wildly put on lipsticks in each other's face and atlast we looked like clowns", Yoongi hyung laughed showing his gummy smile.
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We sat down and gossiped about all the memories we made when we were roommates. It felt nice to start the day with light smiles and laughter after a day of crying.
We kept our mugs at side. Yoongi hyung was silent for sometime.
"You know Namjoon, when I came to join this group. I was confident enough that I'll be doing well in whatever I would do. But when we were trainees, I was scared. You guys were so talented and hard working. I thought that I would lag behind and I wouldn't be a part of this group.
But you were there as a roommate for me. You always helped me write lyrics, you,me and Jin hyung would stay extra time to practice the dance routines and then we three would sneak out and go to convenience stores to eat Ramen. Then we would get scoldings from our dietician but we would laugh it off.
You would always convince me that we would be a big hit when we debut. Whenever I used to break down you were always near me to hold me and make me stand again.
I can never be less grateful to you Namjoon. Whatever I am today, it is because of you. Because of you, I gained confidence in myself that I can perform."
I didn't know what to reply to it, so I just pulled him to a hug and patted his shoulders.
"The feelings are mutual hyung, you guys trusted me and I am grateful that you stayed beside me and now we are here. Even if I would not have been here, you would have reached the same heights hyung, so you don't have to give any credits to me.", I replied to him after breaking the hug.
"I don't wanna argue on this topic Namjoon, when are you going to just shut up and learn how to take a compliment.", He lightly punched me on my forearms and stood up.I too stood up.
"It's almost 6 Am Namjoon. Still I can get three to four hours sleep before getting ready for today's schedule so I am going to sleep. Bye, Good night."
"It's good morning hyung", I said a little loudly. He didn't look back but waved a goodbye.
He went towards his room and I knew that I can't sleep again once I woke up in the morning so I sat again and thought about yesterday.
What am I really doing? Hurting her by ignoring her and speaking rude to her makes me hurt too. And the way her eyes got sad whenever I spoke rudely to her made me sad too.
