My brothers best friend

Chapter 18: In pain

Suddenly I heard someone knock against the glass of the window which caused me to jump a little. I quickly opened my eyes to see who it was.

Alex.

There he was. Just standing in the rain and smiling and waving like a little child. I couldn't believe he was really there. Was I hallucinating? Oh my god.

"Get in the car" I said as I opened the door a little so he could hear me. I didn't want him to get all wet from the rain. 

He quickly jogged over to the other side of the car and opened the door. He sat down on the drivers seat and closed the door again. We starred at each other for a little while.

"Hi", he almost whispered.

The last time I had seen him was when I was at Jamies house and Alex and Jamie ended up singing for me. I had missed him so.

"Hi Alex", I said quietly. We both started giggling. 

It wasn't really awkward but I just was a bit speechless. 

"I missed you, how are you?", Alex gave me a little smile.

I haven't stopped thinking about you once I wanted to say.

"I missed you too.. I'm alright, how are you?"

"I'm also good love.. just a bit busy with our band. You should come and visit us one time"

"Yeah! I should really do that"

Suddenly the picture of Alex and Ava together popped up in my head. I turned away from Alex and looked outside. It just hurt to love someone who didn't love you back.. 

"What are you doing here by the way?" I let out a little chuckle as I turned back to face him. He was looking down and seemed to think of something. He snapped out of his thoughts  after a short while and looked up to me again.

"I was waiting for Matt to pick up our coffee's than I recognized your moms car and I saw you sit inside so I wanted to say hi"

"That's good"

I felt Alex's warm hand grab mine. I looked down to our hands as I tried to ignore the butterflies in my stomach. 

"You look so tired darling" I felt him squeeze my hand gentle.

I looked up into his beautiful eyes. He also looked tired to be honest but I didn't say anything about that.

I was about to say something when I saw my mom heading towards our car with two cups and Matt right next to her.

I quickly let go of Alex's hand and shifted in the seat awkwardly. When Alex noticed them he let out a little chuckle.

"Alright Diana, I guess I have to leave you now. It was nice to see you again"

Please don't..

"Goodbye Alex" I gave him a little smile before he opened the door and lifted from the seat. He waved goodbye and made his way to his car. 

Oh Alex...

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I said good night to my parents and Cody and layed down on my bed. I knew that I wasn't goin to be  able to sleep for the next few hours anyway but I just wasn't in the mood to do anything. 

I was about to close my eyes when my phone screen turned on with a new notification. I groaned as I grabbed my phone to look what it was.

It was from Instagram and it seemed like I had a new follower request. I unlocked my phone and clicked on Instagram.

Omg. I almost gasped when I saw who my new follower was.

Ava...

No way. I clicked on her profile and I started scrolling down.

My heart started aching.

Ava had posted so many pictures of her and Al together. One picture caught my eye.

I love you ... ouch. I looked when she posted this. June 5th.. this was exactly the day we were flying to Italy. I felt the tears in my eyes burn. Alex's smile made me so weak every single time..

I wanted to see what her most recent picture was so I scrolled up again.

Now this was to much. I felt a tear roll down my cheeks.

I started sobbing when I read the caption. Today was June 28th, which means she had posted this picture just yesterday.

Really Alex after everything you did for me?

What about the kiss in the hotel room, the polaroid camera and all the times you held my hands? I started sobbing even more.

I can't believe I was such a fool. I should have listened to my brother. Alex was just a boy who hooks up with every other girl and makes them believe he really has feelings for them when he just wants to screw every single one.

My whole body was shaking. He never really cared for me did he?

I remembered that he told me Ava was hurting him but that was probably just a lie as well, right? He probably just tried to leave it all on Ava so that I believed he actually really feels something for me. God I hated myself. 

I lifted from my bed and took the polaroid picture that I took from Alex in Italy and threw it into the trash. 

Fucking Asshole. He was a really good actor, I had to admit that..

I wish I would have never met him.

I suddenly remembered that his clothes were still in my closet from the night I slept in Alex's house after what had happened in the pub. 

I went over to my closet and slowly took them out of it. I sat on the floor as I buried my face into his clothes. They smelled so good and familiar like Alex. It hurt so much.

I was so in love with him, I don't know how I was able to handle all this pain.

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Hi guys I'm back!! Sorry you had to wait for so long, I hope you're all alright. I don't know how much you remember from my other chapters but yeah I hope you didn't forget everything. This chapter is so dramatic but I hope you liked it. Let me know!