SCARS AND BRUISES II fate : winx saga

late nights

"The beginning and end of something magical."

"What a relaxing first day", Stephen sighs next to me after mom's left the apartment. "I'm sorry that I've let it escalate so far", I mumble regretfully. It would be great to just forget this day. "It's not your fault", he comforts me but I feel his emotions. 

He's worried and angry about something. "What's going on on your mind?", I ask. "Nothing, don't worry about me", Stephen tries to avoid his own emotions but I look at him in a way that he knows that I won't stop asking him about this. 

"I don't like how Riven defended you today. You're a woman who speaks for herself and doesn't need a teenage boy to help her." "I don't have to be a mind fairy to know that you feel like you failed", I sigh, "That's just the way he is and the way you are. You're different people and that's fine. Riven doesn't think about a situation beforehand, he acts out of emotions." 

I explain this to Stephen trying to make the situation better but the look on his face tells me the opposite. "And I'm letting you down just because I'm not a friend of your dad's theory of us being soldiers only and always having to be ready to fight." 

"You're not letting me down", I emphasize furling my eyebrows, "You're a smart man who knows that it doesn't make sense to provoke the other party." "Still, you wanted the type of person he is." "That's bullshit and you know it. You've got no idea what was going on between Riven and I and I won't let you talk about it like this." "Then why did he-" 

"No, not he, Stephen. This should only be about you and I but you're the one pulling Riven into it as well. Riven and I were in the first world together and no matter how close we've been, nothing happened. It's not my job to always justify my friendship to him", I make clear snapping, "I'll leave now. I was glad that you're back and happy to spend the evening wiht you but right now, I just want to be alone." "Scar-" "I'll see you tomorrow. Good night."

"S?", Riven approaches me one week after telling me that he loves me. I sit in the garden at midnight and enjoy the calmness. I often sit here when I can't sleep. No one else is here, it's calm. "Hm?" 

"I'm sorry for trying to force you to kiss me. I was being a dick to you." "Oh you mean for once or all the time?", I joke and clap on the ground next to me so he sits down with me. 

"Let's say half of the time", Riven agrees and looks at me softly, "I know that you don't feel the same but I just wanted to kiss you because of how I feel about you. I haven't talked to you honestly once so I'll give it one serious try. I love you, Scar, and I want you to be my girlfriend for real. I know that you think you're not good enough and like you have no control about anything and yes, somehow we can't control our lives, but I want you just as you are." 

Wow, Riven's the first person making me speechless. Speechless in a good way. I knew that he isn't such a dick to only talk about this damn kiss but I also didn't expect him to be so honest with me. 

"I would like to be your girlfriend", I state smiling, "I didn't expect you to be so serious but we should give it a try. I mean, it's clear that there's a tension between us and that we care about each other." 

"Well, sometimes I can surprise you", Riven chuckles and gets closer to me, "Can I kiss you now or am I still being a dick?" "You're a dick but you're also allowed to kiss me", I giggle and lay my hands around his necks as our lips touch.

"What are you thinking of?", Riven interrupts my thoughts and sits down next to me in the garden, "It's late." "I know. I wanted to stay", I begin but correct myself when I remember that no one knows about Stephen and I yet, "I couldn't sleep." 

"Stay? With whom?", Riven asks knowing me too well. "I was thinking of how we got together", I ignore his question. "Oh yeah? Do you remember how you broke up as well?", Riven replies sharply probably being disappointed by how I don't talk about my actual plans.

Coming back to Alfea after spring break feels different from what I've expected before going there. I thought spring break is the best holiday. Good weather, great friends, lots of fun. Well, Sky and I went home so I was more nervous than happy. 

During christmas holiday, I didn't care much about seeing Stephen again. I'm used to being at Alfea with my friends and wonder if I already moved on. But I try to not focus on Stephen anymore. It wouldn't work out. 

But when Saul told me that Stephen has found a good job in Eraklyon and wouldn't be home for this holiday, I felt like he's left and thought a lot more about him to the point when I felt like it was too much. Riven's my boyfriend so I shouldn't think about anyone else. 

Before spring break, I've decided to use this holiday to find out what I should do. If I stop worrying about Stephen, I'll stay with Riven. Well, that's why I play with my hands nervously as I wait for Riven to come to our place and talk to me. 

"What's so important, babe?" "I.. it'd be better if we break up", I hear myself saying quickly and emotionlessly. He'd get over it. At least that's what I was trying to make myself believe. "Scar-" 

"No, Riv. Don't make it harder for anyone, okay? Sex is great and all but there's just nothing more", I lie sharply and could slap myself for it. Riven insists on an explanation but I manage to leave without saying anything else.