Let me love you[TK au]

41. Apologies

"I'm no one to you to say this but if I didn't then you won't be able to know what he's going through, gone through. He- what do you know about him, sir? I'm sorry in advance If I sound rude but I can't hide my anger. Wh-What do you know about him?", Taehyung looked at the elder who was now looking down.

"Do you-do you know that he had suffered a lot? Do you know how he is when he moved to Seoul? Do you know what he did? In all these years have you ever just called him? Let's leave all that, today, he's here, with you, did you just ask him how is he doing? Why are you not forgiving him, sir? I know nothing about your side or your feelings, but I can say one thing what are you doing to him is wrong. Completely wrong", Taehyung paused to compose himself. He needs to hold himself before he loses control.

"You-ok let's go like this. You know nothing about him after when he moved to Seoul but when he's here, with you, under the same roof years ago, do you know how he is? Do you know that he is depressed? Do you- do you know that he tried to kill himself?", Taehyung whispered the last part. He can't just say those words even tho Jungkook is safe and sound now what if he did something to himself in the past? Taehyung can't even imagine that. His heart aches thinking about the possibilities.

Mr. Jeon's eyes widened in horror. He was angry at his son and never minded about him because he doesn't want to look at his son who never listened to his words. But hearing that his son tried taking his life was the last thing he wished for. He can't believe what he's hearing. His heart clenched at the thought of his son suffering.

"He tried to kill himself. He had tried multiple attempts, do you know? He cut himself a lot, do you know? He cried every night do you know? All you know is he fell in love with a guy. I can feel your anger sir, as a father your anger is right but rather than lashing out at him, rather than using words on him, rather-rather than hurting him verbally you should have talked to him. You should have advised him. You left his hands when you should have held them tightly. Y-You turned your back when he begged for your love", Taehyung looked at the elder who was now crying silently. He sighed.

His heart hurts looking at the aged man being crumbled down. But he can't do anything. The other deserves to know about his mistakes. So Taehyung stayed silent until the man calms down.

"I know it's my mistake son", Mr. Jeon said breaking the silence when he calmed down.

"Sir, you are older than me, I'm in no place to advise you, you have had a lot of experience, and had seen a lot of things in your life. I'm nothing in front of you but I have seen Jungkook being broken. I have seen him crying, I have seen him in his worst state. He suffered from depression and anxiety. And also admitted to the hospital for weeks-".

"-He was admitted to the hospital", Mr. Jeon asked stopping Taehyung in the middle. He sounded panicky. His eyes held many emotions. Sad, hurt, panic, more over regret. Taehyung sighed.

"Yes, for being attacked by anxiety. You may have thought that he's living his life but no. He's not. He's suffering every day there, alone. What did he ever expect from you, sir? He just wanted to have the same life as everyone has with their father. He wanted to be with you, to be loved by you. To-To get a simple birthday wish from you... Do you know how much he cried on his birthday just because you didn't wish him? He may get older, and more mature, but he's still the same 5 years old Jungkook who craves your love and apologies. Let's-let's break this sir. What do we get when we stayed mad and not talking to people? It's going to be the same grave and sand. Let's love everyone before we leave. We don't know when is our last day right? Today I'm talking with you, we don't know that maybe this is my last day. We never know. So let's be happy and make others happy before we leave sir", Taehyung said looking at the elder who was in his deep thoughts.