We were always meant to be

Chapter 14

"It isn't what you think it is."

"Oh I think what I saw was very clear."

"Wait. Let me explain."

"I don't think there is anything to explain here."

"Kiya, you have to believe me!"

"I need to think. I need to be alone." I ran to the bathroom. Tears already streaming down my face. Why? Why the person I have had a crush on for so long and finally got together and started to date? And now I feel being cheated on. Maybe it isn't what I truly saw. Maybe a mistake? I don't know. A part of me wants to let Iris explain but a part of me doesn't. The bathroom was empty. I went into one of the stalls and just stood there and tried to calm down. I couldn't. Maybe I should just fake sick and go home? What would not be the worst idea but I will try to finishes the last three more lesson and go straight home. The bad thing is that I do share the next two lesson with Iris, the last one I have and she doesn't. I don't know if I will survive seeing her in those two lessons and even the girl she had kissed. Why today? Why in general? I want to scream. I want to punch something. But I do know better than to let my emotions control me. Or so I think. I had fifteen minutes until the lesson would begin. I need to breath. I managed to do that. Took some toilet paper and wiped my eyes. I had mascara. So I got out of the stall and washed m eyes. I looked sick. Maybe the teacher will force me to go to the nurse's office and the nurse will send me home. I could lie and would be even easier to go home so I don't have to torture myself.

Finally left the bathroom and went to class. The teacher immediately caught on and told me to go to the nurse's office. The nurse asked me a few questions and I managed to get permission to go home. Texted my family about it, I said I wasn't feeling well. I got to the bus stop and drove home. Once home. I putted away my backpack, got inside my comfy clothes and flopped on the bed to take a very needed nap. It was a very magnificent nap. I was feeling a lot better after I woke up. Like four hours later. Little sister was home. What happened at school hit me like a truck.

I checked my phone. It had many messages and calls from Iris. I had tried of my sound and could not be bothered when I slept. I went down stairs to get myself something to eat. Sister had ordered some pizza and I was the one to give the delivery guy the money. We ate the food in silence.

"You got out of school early?"

"Kind of sick."

"What kind of sick?"

"Love hurts."

"Wait. What happened?"

"I saw Iris kiss another girl or the other way around. I don't know. A part of me believe it is a misunderstanding but another part is very much hurt."

"You guys need to talk then."

"I don't really feel the best to do it today."

"But you should."

"I know. I'll try to do it tomorrow or something. Or just avoid for now."

"You can't avoid her."

"I know."

"Do what you think is best."

"If even I know what is best."

She finished first and went to her room. I cleaned the kitchen up a bit and mom was the first to arrive home.

"How are you feeling dear?"

"Not the best."

"A cold or?"

"I don't think it is a cold. Just not feeling the best."

"Did you sleep up?"

"I did."

"Go to sleep early today too."

"I'll try."

Dad got home just half an hour later. The entire family was home. And soon mom should cook dinner. I attempted to do a bit of homework. The key word attempted. I gave up on the first math question. No homework will be done today. For good distraction I went on my phone. Ignoring all the notifications I still had from Iris. I laid down on my bed and did absolutely nothing. I didn't think, my mind blank. I wanted to be alone. Funny how last weekend I wished to not be alone.

I couldn't take it, so I got my computer to my bed and went on to watch a movie. Mom called for dinner. We all sat down. They pretended I did not exist. Like a ghost. I needed that at the moment. Then got back to my room and presumed to watch a movie and then went onto start a tv series. Clearly I won't be sleeping tonight. And you know what, I prefer not to sleep and just be on my computer. This distracts me better. I might not sleep at all or go to sleep very late. We will see. Besides I started a new show which means if I get hooked on it, I will be here for the next few hours or so.

My parents don't check if any of us are asleep. I am comfortable in my bed. The charger of the computer is long and I have an electrical outlet near my bed. I don't need to charge my phone. The show so far has been interesting. About a high schooler who finds love but the person turned out to be a liar and it was all a bet or so the main character thought. The only light came from my computer's screen and the street lights that were visible from my almost fully closed curtains. I was very focused on the show that I even almost, almost forgot today's events. It was brought back when in the tv show, a character cheated on another person. I had to stop what I was watching. All the memories from school flood my head. My eyes watered up. I tired to wipe them off as much as I could. Did calm down and presumed watching.

Though sometime in like three in the morning my eyes started to become heavy. That is when I decided it was probably a good time to go to bed. Went to the bathroom, did the things ad hopped on the bed, got the covers on me and tried to fall asleep. I felt like sleeping but my mind kept me busy. I do have to talk to Iris soon. Maybe tomorrow. Or I can't. I don't know. What if this is the way our friendship at last would fall apart. I don't want that. I wish I didn't see what I saw. I wish I was a bit early or late. Maybe it is all just a misunderstanding and I am making myself feel worse than I actually should be. What if Iris will not forgive me for my reaction? Please don't let it happen. Sleep finally took me in.