My Growing Heartache

Chapter 31: The (Other) Talk

"Ah, don't cry love. I swear I'll put a baby in there someday." He wiped away a tear that fell and smiled at me. I couldn't help but smile at what he said.

We finished up and left, heading back to my house and when we get there,I lead the way up to my room. I'm tired, exhausted, and I need to pee really badly.

"I'm gonna bathe, William." I yell to him from the bathroom while I start the shower.

"You know, we can just shower together and start this baby making process." He smirked.

"No. I'm too tired and..."

"I wasn't asking..." He said, coming behind me and lightly biting my neck, causing a moan to escape my lips.

This teasing eventually turned into us having sex in the shower. Even though I was making excuses, I really did need that release. When we got off the shower, we 'dried and lotioned' each other.

"Now I'm really exhausted..." I said, out of breath as I put my hair into a ponytail and put on a top and some shorts.

"Well I'm not." He smiled.

"I'm going to eat, pee, then take a fucking nap."

"You just had subway." He counteracted.

"But I basically just worked the food off and that was an hour and a half ago." I state, checking my watch then head downstairs to the kitchen. I eat some leftover macaroni and cheese and spaghetti and meatballs. To my surprise, it actually tastes quite good until I start to feel nauseous. I decide to not finish it and I throw it away. There wasn't much left anyways. I use the bathroom really quickly and run- more like power walk- up the stairs and back into my room.

I get into bed and cuddle with William, putting my head on his chest. I feel his arms wrap around me and I breath in his cologne while he soothingly rubs back, causing me to fall asleep faster.

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"Kennise...Kennise, I've got to go now baby..."

"Why the hell are you waking me up..you live right next door." I mumble.

"Well, I'm leaving now. I love you." He kissed me.

"I hate you now bye." I joked.

"Not funny. You're gonna pay for it too." I shot my head up, knowing what he meant immediately.

"I love you...?" I say trying to avoid what he's gonna do.

"Nope. I'll get you when you least expect it. Now go back to sleep." He says, kissing my forehead and leaving I did exactly what he said and went straight back to sleep.

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I wake up and look at the clock, seeing that its 12:43 pm. I slept that long!! I think to myself.

I drag myself out of bed to do my hygiene routine, then I go downstairs to get some waffle with whip cream and raspberries to eat. Yes, I had to make it FROM SCRATCH by myself and boy did I make a huge mess, but I got it done and ate it all without feeling like puking it.

I grab my phone and decide to call Rosa. It's been a while since we've talked and I really do miss her.

"Hello?" She asked in a bored tone.

"Hey. It's been a while. Wanna meet up somewhere and catch up?"

"Yeah! That'd be great!"

"Okay. How does the park sound?"

"Okay, sounds good to me. See ya."

I hang up and put on some shorts, sandals, a sheer top, and little accessories because its a nice day out. I grab a jacket and my car keys and head out the door.

I reach the park and just slowly walk around. I watch all the people walking around hand in hand with their partner or child. I got a little farther through and saw the playground, so I sat on the bench by it. There were kids in the swings, slides, monkey bars, sandboxes, and other things. Then, a little boy fell and scraped his knee and his mom picked him up, rubbed his knee, kissed him, and gave him a candy. I got a little teary- eyed cause I knew that the possibility of that being me is way too small. I quickly wipe a tear that fell. I was getting tired of crying.

"Hey Kenz!" Rosa said, running up to me.

"Hey babe. What's been up with you lately?" I asked hugging her then sitting back on the bench.

"Nothing really. Just trying to stay out of trouble. How've you been? And how William?"

"He's fine. And I've been good, just that I feel fat cause all I've been doing is eating as usual ha." We both laughed a little. "Oh and William thinks I'm pregnant. Can you believe that?" I ask, knowing that she knows why I can't be pregnant.

"Well, maybe you could be. I mean, they said that there's a slight possibility that you could have a child." She said, being optimistic.

"But that possibility is about the same amount as a blind man being told that he might be able to see again."

"Oh, don't be so negative!" she scolded.

"I try not to but it breaks my heart knowing that I basically can't reproduce. I want to be able to carry on my spouse's legacy and shit but its just not gonna happen." I state, looking back at the playground.

"Then prove to him that you're not pregnant!" She blurted out.

"How?" I ask obliviously.

"Take a pregnancy test."

"Okay." My mouth said before my brain could stop it. She got up and I followed suit, walking to my car.

"You have to buy it though." I say.

"Fine by me!"

After stopping at the store, we headed to my house where I knew nobody was because Rissa is at my Aunt's house to spend some time with her and daddy went back to traveling for his job.

"Okay. Take the tests and then wait 5 mins." Rosa said after reading the directions. I hate reading directions. She got two tests just to make sure that it was right.

I walked into the bathroom and took a deep, hopeful breath of air. I open the tests and take them, washing my hands afterwards. I walk back into my room and flop down on the bed next to Rosa, putting my head on her shoulder. We wait in silence for those five minutes that felt like forever. I get up and walk back into the bathroom and brave myself.

I look at the little rectangle shaped tests that will decide my fate and change my life forever.

"Oh no..." I whisper, calling Rosa over to make sure this thing is correct.

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I'm sorry it took so long my lovelies. I'm going to try to start updating more often. But thanks for all the feedback and love on the last chapter. I'm wishing to get the same on this one..? No? Iight I got you lol. But you guys already know the dealy-o. ( me trying to be ghetto haha)

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