HER ~ Hobie Brown x FemReader!

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We talked for a few more until the food finally came. By the time we had finished we were all so full. The food was good as always. I love this restaurant. This so where I met Gwen. She used to come here everyday Saturday. So did I thats why her and I became close we both found each other interesting.

She loved my style and vibe. While I loved her hair and piercings. We both soon found out we had the same interest in music. She told me she knew how to play drums and that she was in a band. She invited me to go watch her preform once and let's just say I was amazed at how good she was!

Till this day she amazes me so much. I soon told her I knew how to play the electric guitar. I wasn't in a band like her though. I played at home for fun or whenever I felt the need to release stress. Which was quite frequent.

She came over to my place and watched me play then we both played together. That's how it was for while. Until one day her and I just stopped talking. She was busy with school while I was busy with work.

Here and there i would try to see if she was in this restaurant but she wasn't ever there so I stopped coming. I was already done with school. I had graduated early cause I didn't want to waste my teen years stuck in a place that makes you feel like you're in prison.

When I had met her I was only 17 she was 16. I was a trouble maker though. All my teachers hated me. But I still did my work and did summer school as well so that I could leave school early.

I hung out with trouble makers. We would constantly be getting chased by cops almost every weekend. Either from doing something bad like trespassing into abandoned buildings, tagging on rich people property or from car meets.

Car meets are fun and all until take overs happen. Take overs were something else and once the cops came. Everyone would run to their cars and leave. Some people almost getting ran over due to everyone trying to leave as quick as possible so that they wouldn't get a ticket.

I slowly stopped going to them though. I didn't really have time for any of that anymore. Work was getting in the way of everything. I started to work double shifts and it was just so time consuming that I couldn't have fun anymore.

I didn't even have time to play my guitar anymore. Work was my main focus since I need the money to keep my small apartment at the time. I'm forever grateful for what I have now. I smiles to myself as we walked out of the restaurant.

Pav and hobie we're talking about who knows what. While I was stuck with my thoughts. I didn't mind I sometimes find it comforting in way when I didn't really feel like talking.

We were walking down the street. Me still lost in my thoughts as we continued walking. Even though my thoughts were taking over I was still conscious of what I was doing. Kind of.

Everything was muffled and nothing could be heard but my self conscious talking to me as I listened to what she had to say. I love the feeling of being able to mute everything around me in command.

Derealisation was something I always dealt with since I was little, especially after what happened to my parents. I would create little scenarios to keep my self occupied. Some of them felt so real, so real that sometimes I cant even tell my scenarios and real life memories apart.

The worst part of dealing with derealisation is when you finally snap out of it and the empty feeling inside you consumes you, and you're left there scared to even talk or move cause you know the feeling you'll feel once you do isn't comforting at all.

You start to realize that you were so far deep into your thoughts that you start to question everything around you. Even the people you're close too. You realize that there's an actual soul in there and you start becoming afraid of them.