As Long As I'm Here // Billie Eilish

Unnatural

Billie looks too stunned to speak because of what she just heard so I decide to step in.

"Excuse me but that's really not how you treat another human being nicely. You should be a role model for your daughter instead" I say trying to calm everything down.

"That's exactly what I'm being, I think it's wrong and therefore I don't get my daughter exposed to it. If you two also are boarding this flight I really hope you behave and that you sit in spot so we won't have to look at you" she says now looking angry.

I look over at Billie who's now also angry and takes a deep breath in preparing to scold her. But I grab her arm and looks her I the eyes as I tell her to calm down. I don't want the situation to blow up anymore.

"We really haven't done anything at all except existing and loving each other. Which is not, in any way, wrong. We will go now and if you don't want to see us, then please close your eyes. Have a good day, bye" I say as I take Billie's hand and continues to board the plane.

Wow, guess I spoke too soon about how sweet they looked I think to myself as we find our seats. I look over to Billie who's looking out the window facing away from me. I can't see her face but I can see her neck jerking through her black hood protecting her head. I look down and see her legs bouncing, she's ticing. Probably because she's upset. I place my hand on her thigh comfortingly.

"Are you okay?"

"Just got called 'disgusting' and 'unnatural', but otherwise I'm good" she scoffs still facing away from me.

I sigh before speaking up.

"Billie, you know I didn't mean it like that. I just want to be there for you"

"I know, sorry..." She says and turns to face me.

I take her hand in mine. Her neck is still jerking and her eyes moves rapidly.

"Can I do anything for you hjärtat? (my heart in Swedish)

"I don't know, I just got upset and now it won't stop" she says struggling a bit from the pain.

"Come here" I say and open up my arms for her, guiding her head to rest on my chest.

At first she hesitates a bit looking around but then she gives in.

"Don't think about them, if they have a problem it's their problem, not ours. Just rest for a bit" I tell her as I start to run my fingers through her hair.

Her ticing slows down and eventually stops after a while but she's still pretty tense.

"Relax baby" I mumble to her.

She shakes her head in response.

"If I do I'm gonna start crying, and I do not want that here where everyone can see. So please don't talk about it or I'll start"

I sigh and shake my head smiling for myself at her. She makes such a big problem out of the smallest things. I reposition us both so we are facing away from everyone, towards the window. I place her head against my chest and puts my black jacket on top of her as a blanket. She looks at me weirdly throughout the whole process, not knowing what I'm up to.

"Better?" I question as I continue playing with her hair.

She finally relaxes and a few silent tears escape her eyes. She buries her head in to my chest and I just keep stroking her back and playing with her hair.

"See, the world didn't end? You are an expert at making the smallest things into the biggest problems" I say and peck her forehead.

"Fuck you" she mumbles from my chest smiling a bit.

"You know, I would would love to. Not that I think those homophobes were right but I don't think it's appropriate here" I say and shrug.

"Stop being an asshole!" Billie laughs.

"At least I got you to laugh" I say and giggle.

"Okay, okay, I'll stop. Get some sleep now my love"

"No, I'm good" she says.

"Why? You are clearly tired"

"You know why. I don't want it to happend here while I'm stuck on an airplane" she whispers.

"Oh I get it. But I think you're cool if you just go to the toilet before you fall asleep" I tell her.

"Tuva!! Not so loud god dammit!" She says.

"Sorry.." I whisper.

"Well then, just rest at least. I got you" I tell her and peck her head once again.

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