Attached to you - [Bbangsaz]

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When the car stopped at a traffic light, Minji put her hand on my legs, which gave me butterflies in my stomach. I wanted to scream my heart out, but Minji was there to witness it, making me wonder what I did to deserve her affections.

It's an honor being Minji's first passenger in her most expensive and luxurious Lamborghini, and feeling her hand on my legs is making my heart flutter with excitement. As I look at Minji driving confidently with just one hand, I can't help but feel a sense of attraction towards her. It's moments like this that make me feel grateful to be Minji's friend and to have her in my life. I don't want her money or even her car Lamborghini.. I want her. But she doesn't want me, just as her friend.

When the traffic light turned green, Minji used her other hand to drive, while her hand was still on my leg. I didn't mind this at all, and I also felt a sense of comfort and tenderness in that moment.

As we arrived at school, before I could open the door, Minji stopped me. "I will be the one who opens the door for you," she said, making me feel like a princess. Minji parked her car seemingly out of nowhere, or perhaps nearby the school. She got out of the car and walked over to the passenger side door with the intention of helping me to get out. Unbuckling my seatbelt.

The look on Minji's face was so close to mine, that my mind created a fantasy about her leaning in for a kiss, but it was only a thought. Minji didn't do anything out of the ordinary, and instead, she just smiled warmly at me. Minji's gesture of opening the door and unbuckling my seatbelt was a sweet and thoughtful action, and I couldn't help but feel swooned by Minji's charm and kindness towards me.

"Now go up and don't make me carry you. Treat you like a princess" Minji playfully said as she giggled.

I playfully smashed Minji's arm as I stepped outside of the car.

"Let's go!!" Minji said, clutching my arm as she led me towards the school building. Even though it might have hurt a bit, I knew she was just playing around.

Minji often seemed childlike, but that's what I loved about her. The fact that she trusted me and didn't mind showing her authentic self made me feel cherished and appreciated.

Minji's smile was like a bear's-adorable and cute.

But little did you know that behind that soft and innocent facade, Minji had another side to her?

Weird but okay.

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As classes were dismissed, I went to my locker--I just needed to pick up something and I was not going to write in my secret diary. I felt a bit foolish to have been writing in my secret diary for a year when the person I wrote about just thought of me as a friend.

I might choose to stop writing in that diary, since there seemed to be no purpose to it after all.

Yes, it's Minji. I mean, I think I might give up soon... Or not. I'm not sure, but I might just end up with someone who deserves me. But I might be sad to let Minji go, because I like her and I love her. The fact that she just sees me as a friend doesn't matter now.

I like her and I love how gentle and wonderful she is. She just seems like such a green flag.

Even if she just sees me as a friend, I can't help but think about her and all the things she does. She's so cute and quirky, and I can't help but feel so drawn to her. I don't know if I want to give her up now, because even if she doesn't feel the same way, she's such a big part of my life. I can't imagine not having her around.

But at the same time, the thought of staying friends with her and never taking things further hurts. The possibility of never being able to be more than just friends is a sad thought. I've already wasted a year writing about her in my secret diary, so maybe it's time to move on and find someone who really does deserve me.

I started to space out as my thoughts wandered.

Wait, no- I don't want to.

I might regret it soon if I found someone other than Minji, and left her behind.

Or...?

Huh?! Nevermind. It's not my problem. I have my Kim Minji.

My... Kim Minji?! No, that sounded wrong because she's not really mine or even my girlfriend.

I don't... I don't know anymore.

This is all just in my mind, and I got caught up in my thoughts.

Too embarrassing, I spaced out in my locker, and other students were looking at me. I shook my head to bring myself back to reality.

Damn, Minji. What have you done to me to make me this obsessed with you?!

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This is all I can do, delulu well 😔❤️‍🩹