Sweeney Todd x reader - Our Secret

The end of the story.....

Have her.

No!!!!

Stay still!

Please stop!!!

Their voices ring in my ears and I can't help but hear Toby's screams. Nellies cries. Joanna's pleads and Anthony pain.
"We have to go!" I say in a panic. My body shakes and I fight the urge to run and find the nearest exit. But he holds onto me so tightly and I can't help but thrash against him. I need to get away.

"Hey hey! It's okay, it's okay!"
"No! It's not, they could already be dead!!!" I shout and he pulls me into a hug and holds me so tightly I can't draw a breathe.
I thrash again him even more and cause our bodies to collide against the stone wall, causing him to grunt out.

Father help-!!

It's gonna be okay- it's gonna be o—.....

NOO!!!!!

We fall. And I still fight against him.
"Let me go!" I scream and he shushes in my ear. The feeling sends shivers and my body seems to recognise the sensation.
Tears are flowing down my cheeks and the feeling stings my flesh, making me wanna peel myself apart.

"Y/n, you need to calm down! I'm here now!" He pleads in my ear and I continue to kick my legs around.
Their screams are consuming me! I can't breathe.
I can't do this anymore!
I can't bear the voices anymore!!

I can't bear the thought of letting anyone else I care about die!!!

"Shhh shh it's okay" he whispers once more, holding me in his arms and resting his head into my neck.
He's shaking too.....or is that my body thrashing against his?

"No it's not..! Their dead! Their all dead!" I scream. "I killed them!....I killed them all...."

"Y/n it wasn't your fault!" His head comes up and makes me face him. I stare into his eyes and their full of anger and despair. But also kindness. His eyes are so beautiful.....

"Yes it was! I let them die! I let them all die and I killed my brother...!" I cry out my heart to him. I break apart in his arms and he still manages to hold me together.

"No you didn't! You didn't ......" his voice trails off as he tries to calm me down but I'm crying too much too hear him. My body slowly stop fighting against him and I just give up any attempts to get away. Giving in to his touch.

"I killed him.....I killed my brother, my- my brother"  I manage to choke out the words. Realisation hitting me like a tonne of bricks and it feels as if the world is crashing down on me.

"Y/n, look at me. You did what was necessary okay. You saved me! Okay.......he deserved it" at first his words soothed me. But I couldn't help but repeat what he said last in my head.

Yes. He did deserve to die.
But at my hand?
By my methods?
He was still! My. Brother!

My body seems to stop fighting completely against his and I can't help but feel as if my breathing has hitched and starting picking up again slightly.
"What...?" My voice breaks.

He looks at me with such ease and I feel somehow empty at his words. I feel his hand come up to my cheek and hold it but I can't feel it. I feel nothing right now.