TechnicalTheater Oneshots and Smutshots

I'm Sorry Solar... : Ruin x Hallucination Solar (SAMS Oneshot)

~ Important Author's Note (Pls Read) ~
First things first... art used for this oneshot above is by @/TQuakers so go give them some love their art is amazing.

Now that that's out of the way, I don't know how long this oneshot will be. It might be on the shorter side but ya never know with me. So we'll just play it by ear to see how long I end up making it. Other than that this oneshot is a bit on the sadder side of things. I don't normally write angst but sometimes do thus getting this idea. It doesn't follow my SolRuin AU fully where Ruin found a way to save Solar but more so canonical events in SAMS.

Basically what spawned this idea is, I know it's not in order but it's the fact that in the 3rd part of the oneshot called "The Return Of Solar" Ruin said he hallucinated Solar multiple times almost constantly during the time Solar was dead. So this is a little bit of a singular deep dive into what he went through with hallucinations.

So with that being said, this oneshot takes place in the past a few months after Ruin killed Solar. It's during the time Nexus was going insane. So not when Ruin was locked up in parts and service but more so a little after. So it's basically a down time in his work he's been burying himself in and his grief about killing Solar keeps returning thus being another hallucination episode. So I hope you guys enjoy ;3
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~ Ruin's POV ~

It's been a few months since I killed Solar. However it hasn't been an easy few months. For starts, ever since I was locked up in parts and service removed from all motor functions by the one who now goes by Nexus. My guilt for killing Solar has been eating me alive and haunting me daily.

I have been hallucinating Solar for months now. Sometimes multiple times a day. This all started when I was locked up and unable to move. Since then these hallucinations have only spiraled further downward.

On top of dealing with hallucinations, I've been tortured and yelled at by individuals as well as used as a wireplay toy unable to do anything about it because I couldn't physically move. I was kidnapped by someone who goes by Molten Freddy. Found, repaired, and returned to what I now call my home by Dark Sun. Choked by Nexus as well as locked up again but in a different cell. Freed by Bloodmoon and forced to help get revenge for his twin. Almost blown up by Nexus with starpower if it weren't for Puppet. And finally now forced to work with Moon and find where Dark Sun and Nexus now are.

So in all I've not had it easy. Then again in this place none of us can ever catch a break. Either way I've been working myself to the bone on different projects trying to distract myself from my grief over killing my lover.

I've been tirelessly working on finding Dark Sun and Nexus by sending small bots in different dimensions. These bots are meant to report back to me if they find anything interesting that's worth analyzing and taking a closer look at.

Other than that I had finally gotten some down time to think to myself for a little while. So I headed up to the room I once shared with Solar and rested for a bit. I was so dreadfully exhausted but couldn't fall asleep. Instead I just laid there and stared up at the ceiling thinking.

However just like always, my grief for killing Solar comes back and bites me in the buttocks. I felt myself thinking back to what I did and on the verge of tears. That's when I shut my eyes and say to myself "He should be there any minute now"

(Hallucination) Solar: "Hun?"

Ruin: "Ah, there it is."

(Hallucination) Solar: "What do you mean by that Hun?"

Ruin: "Why must you haunt me so?"

(Hallucination) Solar: "Haunt?"

After the hallucination said that I sat up on the bed and continued to talk.