The door swings open and my girl Zara appears with brightness on her facial expression as she sees me-she looks genuinely happy like nothing is bothering her.
Why can't I also be like this instead of forcing a facade? A second of it won't hurt, namsayin? It ain't too much to ask for.
"Aww hey Mama", she leans towards me with open arms.
Her warmth covers me tightly, "I missed you Ava", she whispers.
I clench my jaw as tight as I can to hold back the tears that are threatening to pour out, "Hello baby", I manage to say with my arms wrapping around her.
Upon having a break down moments ago, this hug evokes certain emotions that I dont want to explore right now. Momma taught me not to be vulnerable infront of anyone-it makes me want to cry.
So to ease up the emotions building up withing me, I lower my hand to grab her ass "I see your lil booty growing!", I exclaim loud as usual.
"Okay I don't miss you anymore", she says with a giggle as she pulls back from the hug.
A laugh leaves my mouth, "What's good babe?", I ask, taking a sip while walking into the apartment like I own the place.
She sighs, closing the door behind us, "Nothing much, you know? Just tryna figure out what to wear for my date with Jermaine tonight", she says, a smile suddenly growing at the mention of his name.
Last time I was here, she was contemplating on cutting him off after she found out that he smoke cigarettes, namsayin? Now she is head over heels with him? Girl...
"You need to give me a lowdown about you and Jermaine. How did it lead to a date like that?", I quickly plop myself down on the couch with my pink bottle held delicately in my hand.
This really ain't much honestly, but I guess it's enough to ease off my mind.
She giggles, plopping herself down next to me, "So...", she starts, her eyes sparkling with exctiment, "on Saturday right? We went to Sip'Verage and I told him about my past and why I hate cigarettes blah blah blah..."
"Yeah yeah", I sip on my wine, the familiar burn tingling my throat.
"Girl, that man listened to me like he was walking in my shoes for a moment. Like, he paid so much attention that I felt safe enough to be vulnerable and cry infront of him-he made me so comfortable mama", she says with a serious, yet honeyed tone of voice.
"Mmmh", I continue sipping.
She is hooked.
"When we talked about my dreams and ambitions, he listened to understand, not to just nod and change the subject like most people be doing. And that alone made me feel like he could be a supportive man-emotionally and in every way possible-a man who is not only interested in me but my life as well, you feel me?", she says with a warm smile.
Yup, definitely fell for him without a rope.
"Girl, you talking about, oh he made me feel safe...what that n*gga Jermaine doing to you girl!", I exclaim with my hand raised for for a high five.
She giggles, raising her hand to dab me, "I don't know mama".
"Shit, I knew your ass liked him, but I didn't know you were this crazy about that n*gga. Tell me what happened after the date girl", I take yet another sip, feeling the buzz intensifying.
Love and Hate
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