"are we still friends? Can we be friends? are we still friends? I've got to know"
in which Trent Alexander Arnold and Madison Lopez are very flirty friends, who hook up one time, or more.
trentarnold66 my house, 4pm? *liked by madisonlopez*
I was definitely not excited to meet up with Trent later, I didn't even want to get out of bed yet. I just wanted to stay in here for the rest of the day, just close my eyes and hope that when I open them ale would be next to me.
it didn't work.
so I decided to get up, I would have to get ready anyways so why not just do it now instead of crying in my bed all day.
normally I would love getting ready to meet up with someone, but this was so different. I had just gotten broken up with and now I had to talk to my 'ex best friend with benefits' as he would say it.
I just wanted this day to be over already, I wanted to go to bed and sleep it out, think about everything just a little more before talking about it.
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I WAS NOT EXCITED TO BE SITTING ON TRENTS COUCH, I waited as he got me tea, I was still debating wether I should pour the tea over him or drink it.
"here you go" he puts the cup on the table in front of me.
"right, I'm sorry for everything I did. I knew I should've never started something with you, even if it wasn't a relationship I should've just never gone there but I simply couldn't help it once I knew you wanted me as well" he starts
"madi, I've liked you since the day I met you, you're an amazing person and everyone knows that. I just can't do relationships, I'm not made for it." He adds
"and I know that's no excuse for the way I hurt you, but it's just simply the only explanation I have. It's stupid, but I think we both know how stupid I am by now."
"I just don't wanna lose you, ever. I get scared of commitment and cheat on people, I know that's bad and I'm a bad person but I never, ever wanted to hurt you. I really love you" he softly smiles, trying to make out what I'm feeling.
"you're right, it's no excuse. I don't understand how anyone can be so small hearted to do that to a person, I really liked you trent, and you made it seem like you liked me as well" I argue back
"I really thought we could've had something, you gave me that hope. you told me you saw yourself in a relationship with me and I feel right into that trap because I genuinely thought I was in love" I frown
"I know, I know. I'm sorry madi. I really did see myself being with you, I still do. I just never wanted to hurt you, that's exactly why I started going out with that other girl" he defends, but it honestly made things worse.
"I didn't want to hurt you while we were too deep in, so I did it early on to avoid any real damage. I don't know why I am the way I am madi" he adds, looking genuinely sad.
"well, that really is the least of my concerns right now. thank you for this talk, it was good." I partially stand up before being pulled back down.
"what's going on?" Trent asks "ale broke up with me" I feel tears swell up in my eyes "why?" he curiously questions "he wanted me to make sure there weren't any more feelings between us" I explain.
"well, are there? cause for me, there are still so many feelings." he looks in my eyes, I regretted even looking at him "I don't know, I don't know" I softly say, almost in a whisper.
"let's find out then" he grabs my face, pulling me in for a long kiss. It wasn't anything special, just a simple kiss.
"did that make you feel anything? do I make you feel anything?" he asks softly "maybe a little bit? I don't know, I just don't know" I respond, I was so confused about everything.
I didn't know if these were feelings for Trent or heartache about alejandro.
"okay, let's just spend some time together, see if you feel anything then" he assures me everything will be alright, I hope it will. I want to figure this out just as much as ale and Trent want me to.
I simply nod with a small smile.
AUTHORS NOTE: bro I'm actually confused on what I can do for the next few chapters
we can't be friends (wait for your love) - Ariana grande
