hey angel / h.s

out now!!

October 5th, 2021:

"but Ellie what is your album called??" Joe asked me after we just finished listening to right were you left me. "Joe you're right! You still haven't told us and you only have 15 minutes left, before it's getting released." Gracie added. I quickly stood up and went into my bedroom and got the final vinyl, which got pressed the day after I went on a walk with Harry and Niall. Everyone was asking where I am going, but when they saw what I've got in my hands, they all grew more excited. Taylor started drum on the table. "The album will be called "juno"" I just rambled out and turned around the vinyl. Everyone cheered and seemed surprised. "At least I can understand her album name." Joe said, while staring at Taylor. I guess she got the hint.
"But why Juno and not Ellie, when you wanted to name it after yourself?" Liam asked, while he got himself a second slice of cake. "Oh I don't know I just liked the sound of someone calling me that name." I admitted when I held eye contact with Harry. "Only 2 minutes left Ellie! Oh my gosh I can't believe it." Sabrina jumped up and put her arms around me. Harry was still sitting in our place and was smiling at me.

"Ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three, two, one!!" All of my friends counted down till midnight. We all saw how my album appeared on Spotify. "I can't believe it, my first album is out. Thank you guys for supporting me!" I quickly thanked them all. I knew that they will leave soon, because they all had tight schedules. Gracie and Sabrina both hugged me and left at first. I knew that they both had to be in New York by tomorrow, so I wasn't angry about it. Joe seemed to have the hardest job for tonight. Taylor was so drunk. She had drunken so much wine and kept refilling her glass. She even needed help with putting on her coat. I gave her a big hug and we agreed on seeing each other, before she will leave London next month. I gave Joe some cake for the two of them and they left soon afterwards. So only the boys and I were left. It was like finally getting some quality time with them. "You've really done a great job, darling!" Louis hugged me and looked at me proudly. "Yeah you finally released something. I couldn't keep listening to your solo in hey angel. I need your own songs to listen to." Liam joined the hug. When we were stepping back, I saw Niall wiping away his tears. "Oh Niall come here!" I embraced him. "I am just so proud of you Ellie. After all you've been through, you really deserve this. I hope you will tour this album. I want to see you back on stage. It's so special." I heard Niall sniffing. The 3 of them needed to leave too because it was getting pretty late, but I insisted on wrapping up some cake for them too. I felt like my mother. She would never let people leave without some food.

I closed the door and turned around. Harry was cleaning up the table and started to bring the dishes into the kitchen. "Harry what are you doing? You are a guest. You can't clean up!!" I scolded him. "Well I thought you shouldn't be cleaning up alone, so I thought why not help you." He shrugged. "That's really kind of you, but you don't have to do this. I will do this tomorrow. Really it's not big deal, but thank you for offering" I reassured him. We both went into the living room and Harry picked up my vinyl. "So "Juno" huh? I guess I can't keep calling you that or else people will know." He seemed fond of the fact that he inspired me again. We started to get closer and the dim light of the candles made it hard to see him completely. "Well I guess it will be our secret then." I was looking up to him and he was lowering his head to get a look of my face. I didn't know what was happening, but I can't say that I didn't liked it. He was slowly pushing a loose strand of hair behind my ear. "I am really proud of you, love. I knew you would do it eventually. You know, I was updating my Spotify and insta feed every morning to see, if you had announced anything and when you finally did a few month ago, I never felt more proud of someone then I felt for you. I am so grateful that you chose to share your stories with us. I regret not being there for you, when you went through all of it, but I hope you know that I always thought of you." I couldn't respond to this. I've never heard someone being so honest to me. "Harry... I don't know what to say. All this time I thought you forgot about me and I just couldn't move on, but now I just wished that I reached out to you. It felt like you were so busy with your life that there wasn't any space for me." His eyes were looking sad and he laid his hands on my waist. "Love, I've never wanted to make you feel this way. All of the things you said in your songs made me realise this even more. I am sorry for not being there and not reaching out. What you said in loml or i know it's for the better really makes me regret not being with you. I hope you can forgive me." Harry looked down to his shoes. I lifted his head by touching his chin and smiled at him. I had to admit that I really wanted to kiss him in this moment, but I knew I couldn't, so I decided to give him a kiss on his cheek and hug him instead. His arms were wrapped around my waist, while I was hugging him around his neck. It felt so normal like we have been together ever since the break. I knew that Harry had to leave soon, but I didn't want the night to end.