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An Autumn Outing (Pt. 2) 🍂🍁: Solar x Ruin (SAMS AU Oneshot)

~ Important Author's Note (Pls Read) ~
Ok so first things first, wow a part 2 I was not expecting to make this. Anyway, that's not what I wanted to talk about I wanted to say this. So this part is actually a little bit heavier. Yeah surprise, what started off as a sweet innocent date between Solar and Ruin ended up getting a little dark due to memories of unresolved trauma because of my creative brain. Yet what I mean by "unresolved trauma" is for once not Ruin's. You guys know that I've written a little bit about Ruin's in the past so this one is a little bit about Solar's. It's basically about his version of Sun in his dimension and what happened. So with that being said I hope you guys enjoy ;3
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- Last Part -
~ Solar's POV ~

Solar: *sighs* "I honestly wanted to come here because of wanting to collect things to decorate the table and the house in general. Things such as pinecones and the colorful leaves. I aways watched my Sun do this in my home dimension when we shared a body. He always loved doing that. So when we separated I continued the tradition to keep it alive for him even if it hurt me."

Ruin: "Aww that's not stupid at all darling. That's actually really sweet."

Solar: "Exactly. Which makes me wonder if this dimension's Sun would appreciate it too. I know he likes to decorate, Halloween was obvious enough."

Ruin: "He probably would."

Solar: "Yeah. Then when December comes around, I feel like the kids would love to decorate the pinecones like little Christmas Trees. Especially Dazzle since she loves doing arts and crafts."

Ruin: "That's sweet of you to think about them like that."

Solar: "I mean Dazzle and Twila are my nieces and Jack is my son, so all I want is to see them happy."

Ruin: "Fair enough. Plus, I dare say that does make sense as to why you brought those bags now."

Solar: "I... *blushes out of awkward embarrassment*... Y-Yeah."

Ruin: "Don't be such ashamed Darling. Give me one of the bags and I shall gladly help you with this tradition."

Solar: "Alright."

With that I hand him one of the bags and we started collecting pinecones and colorful leaves for decorating.

- Current Part -
~ Solar's POV ~

As we were doing this I felt something click inside me changing my entire mood. Doing this made me think back to what I had just told Ruin about watching my Sun do this when we shared a body. And how much my Sun use to love doing it.

The thought made me start to softly cry but I quickly tried to wipe the tears away and hide it. However, it wasn't working out very well as I slipped further and further into memories of my home dimension Sun.

I eventually felt myself almost break so I wondered off from Ruin to be alone. I found a tree and sat under it with my legs pulled up to my chest and just broke.

Even after all these years of him being gone it still always hurts to think about him. What's worse is that I always think I got over the loss of him because it's been so long since separation.

However, memories of my Sun always show me that I never have. That I never got over his death and most likely never will.

I can always tell I still have the unresolved trauma over losing my Sun. That the memories of him still hurt me and I still blame myself for killing him upon separation. Even if I know it wasn't my fault but his own.