~ Important Author's Note (Pls Read) ~
Ok so first things first, wow a part 2 I was not expecting to make this. Anyway, that's not what I wanted to talk about I wanted to say this. So this part is actually a little bit heavier. Yeah surprise, what started off as a sweet innocent date between Solar and Ruin ended up getting a little dark due to memories of unresolved trauma because of my creative brain. Yet what I mean by "unresolved trauma" is for once not Ruin's. You guys know that I've written a little bit about Ruin's in the past so this one is a little bit about Solar's. It's basically about his version of Sun in his dimension and what happened. So with that being said I hope you guys enjoy ;3
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- Last Part -
~ Solar's POV ~
Solar: *sighs* "I honestly wanted to come here because of wanting to collect things to decorate the table and the house in general. Things such as pinecones and the colorful leaves. I aways watched my Sun do this in my home dimension when we shared a body. He always loved doing that. So when we separated I continued the tradition to keep it alive for him even if it hurt me."
Ruin: "Aww that's not stupid at all darling. That's actually really sweet."
Solar: "Exactly. Which makes me wonder if this dimension's Sun would appreciate it too. I know he likes to decorate, Halloween was obvious enough."
Ruin: "He probably would."
Solar: "Yeah. Then when December comes around, I feel like the kids would love to decorate the pinecones like little Christmas Trees. Especially Dazzle since she loves doing arts and crafts."
Ruin: "That's sweet of you to think about them like that."
Solar: "I mean Dazzle and Twila are my nieces and Jack is my son, so all I want is to see them happy."
Ruin: "Fair enough. Plus, I dare say that does make sense as to why you brought those bags now."
Solar: "I... *blushes out of awkward embarrassment*... Y-Yeah."
Ruin: "Don't be such ashamed Darling. Give me one of the bags and I shall gladly help you with this tradition."
Solar: "Alright."
With that I hand him one of the bags and we started collecting pinecones and colorful leaves for decorating.
- Current Part -
~ Solar's POV ~
As we were doing this I felt something click inside me changing my entire mood. Doing this made me think back to what I had just told Ruin about watching my Sun do this when we shared a body. And how much my Sun use to love doing it.
The thought made me start to softly cry but I quickly tried to wipe the tears away and hide it. However, it wasn't working out very well as I slipped further and further into memories of my home dimension Sun.
I eventually felt myself almost break so I wondered off from Ruin to be alone. I found a tree and sat under it with my legs pulled up to my chest and just broke.
Even after all these years of him being gone it still always hurts to think about him. What's worse is that I always think I got over the loss of him because it's been so long since separation.
However, memories of my Sun always show me that I never have. That I never got over his death and most likely never will.
I can always tell I still have the unresolved trauma over losing my Sun. That the memories of him still hurt me and I still blame myself for killing him upon separation. Even if I know it wasn't my fault but his own.
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~ Ruin's POV ~
I was honestly enjoying collecting the pinecones and colorful leaves. However, I eventually think I've collected enough and decided to show Solar.
Ruin: "Solar Darling I think I have enough but I'd like your input on it just to be sure."
I didn't get an answer.
Ruin: "Solar Darling?"
Still nothing.
Ruin: "Darling?"
With that I just sigh and start calling out to him. How the hell did I lose track of my boyfriend? We were with each other the entire time. Eventually, after a bit of looking for Solar I catch sight of him
He was sitting under a tree with beautiful bright red leaves still on the tree that haven't all fallen off yet. Other than that Solar looked upset. Curious I go over to him only to realize he crying. That's when I set the bag down next to his and sit beside him.
Ruin: "Darling?"
Solar: "I-I'm sorry I just..."
Ruin: "Darling, is everything alright?"
Solar: "Y-Yeah. I'm... I'm fine hun. Don't worry about it."
Ruin: "Solar, did I do something to upset you?"
Solar: No, oh god no. You did nothing wrong."
Ruin: "Then what happened? You were just fine when we started the date so what's with the sudden mood swing?"
Solar: "N-Nothing. Just... Just unresolved trauma of my past."
Ruin: "What ever do you mean by that?"
Solar: *sighs and wipes away tears* "Remember how I told you the reason as to why I collect pinecones and leaves just a little bit ago?"
Ruin: "To keep the tradition your Sun use to do. Yes, of course I remember you saying that."
Solar: "Well... there's your answer for my sudden mood change."
Ruin: " 'Even if it hurts me'. Ah, that makes sense now."
Solar: "Y-Yeah."
Ruin: "Darling..."
Solar: "Heh, it's always so funny to me. I always think I've gotten over the death of my dimension's Sun because it's been so long since we separated. But then I get a memory of him which only spirals into more memories of him like one after the next and then next thing I know it just breaks me. I guess that's my trigger to cry if I ever got into acting and needed to do a crying scene."
Hearing Solar say that last thing gave me a little bit of a chuckle because I knew exactly what he was talking about with that.
~ Solar's POV ~
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A/n:
Before you continue I just have to say this. Fun fact, I was listening to songs while editing this and guess what song came on just as I started editing this part in specific that you're about to read. Fucking... "I'm Not Him" by Mrs_Shadow. That song could've not come on at a more perfect moment while I was editing this part and for that reason I'll link it. It suits this part very well.
Anyway, I hope you enjoy the rest of this oneshot ;3
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After saying what I said I just give a little bit of a forced chuckle between a sniff from crying.
