It had been a few weeks since Jimin and Jungkook had started working through their issues, and for a while, things had seemed to settle. They were spending time together, cuddling, laughing, and enjoying each other's company.Jimins POV:
I was feeling quite bored today, so I thought about going out somewhere. Hmm, that would be nice. I picked up my phone to call Jk The phone was ringing, and he picked up.
'Hey baby,' Jungkook said.
I replied with a simple 'Hmm.'
He asked, 'What happened?'
I said, 'Let's go somewhere today.'
He replied, 'Hmm, today... umm, I'm a bit busy. Let's go on the weekend instead.'
Feeling disappointed, I said, 'Okay.'
Maybe he really is busy. Thought I'd study for a while. After studying for some time, I started feeling sleepy and fell asleep. Does this happen to you too? Falling asleep while studying?"
The noise outside woke me up. Rubbing my eyes, I sat up and yawned while checking my phone to see the time.
'Oh my God, it's 5 o'clock! Damn, I had to go to the market. It's already evening now,' I thought. 'I don't feel like going alone. I don't know why, but I've started depending on Jk. Do I only feel good when I'm with him?'
I called him again. After a few rings, he picked up and said, 'Baby, I'll call you later,' and hung up.
I was furious. He didn’t even listen to me. I called him again. He disconnected after the first ring. On the third attempt, he picked up, and I immediately said, 'Don't cut the call. I need you now.'
There was silence from his side, but I could hear loud music in the background and his friends calling him.
I asked, 'Where are you right now?' He replied, 'Baby, I'm busy. I'm out. Is it something important?'
I was about to answer when I heard a girl's voice in the background saying, 'kookie, come here.' From her voice, it sounded like Somi.
It hurt me, but I didn’t know what to say. He quickly said, 'Bye,' and hung up.
Am I nothing to him? I also needed to go out, but he refused. Tears rolled down my cheeks. I felt terrible,grabbed my earphones and black hoodie and went up to the terrace.
After crying on the terrace for hours, I finally felt some peace. I was calmly watching the city's lights and the hustle of life from the terrace.
But the peace was short-lived, as a new person arrived in terrace or you can say in my life.
Namjoon a tall, lookslike a cheerful personality, came to terrace for fresh air. He smiled at me. At first, I hesitated a little, but then he spoke, ''Hey, I’m new here. I just moved in today. My name is Namjoon. What’s yours?''
I introduced myself as well. We ended up sitting and talking for hours. In front of us, the sunset was happening, and I enjoyed talking to him. I learned some nice things about him, like he lives on the same floor as me but on the opposite side, he loves reading books, and he even raps.
We had a great conversation, and I felt really good talking to him. But yes, he’s older than me, so I started calling him "Hyung". In the end, I hesitantly asked if he would go to the market with me, and he agreed.
We both started walking towards the market. It had been a long time since I went out with someone other than Jungkook, but I felt good.
As we were walking along the park, I was on the roadside. Namjoon suddenly stopped and gently held me back. I wondered what he was doing, but then he said, 'Let me walk on the roadside. The cars here are speeding.'
That small gesture won my heart. Sure, Jungkook used to do things like that too, but we had never walked like this together. I found myself smiling slowly, while Namjoon was busy talking to me.
But apart from all this, Jungkook still hadn’t called me. Fine, whatever. Namjoon and I finished our grocery shopping and started heading back to the dorm while chatting.
We were just about to reach the dorm gate when two cars pulled up behind us, stopping at the entrance. A group of boys and girls got out of the cars. At first, I didn’t pay much attention, focusing on the conversation, but then I heard a voice saying, 'Jungkook, no! Stay over with us tonight.'
I turned to look with wide eyes and saw Jungkook standing there with his back to me, his arm around a girl’s shoulder, chatting with the group. My steps froze right there. Namjoon hyung noticed and looked at me, trying to figure out what was wrong, but I wasn’t paying attention to him. My focus was entirely on that group.
Tears welled up in my eyes. Noticing this, hyung suddenly shouted, 'Jiminie, what’s wrong?' He probably said my name loud enough that even Jungkook heard it. Jungkook turned around, and our eyes met.
I shook my head in disappointment. Jungkook panicked and said, "Jimin, I can explain!" but I didn’t say anything and quietly walked away to the dorm. Hyung followed me without a word.
We both ended up sitting in the garden behind the dorm in silence. I had turned off my phone because he kept calling repeatedly. We stayed there quietly for a long time."
After sitting quietly for a while, I said, 'Why does the person we love the most end up hurting us like this?'
Joonie hyung didn’t say anything at first, just smiled. Then he said, ''You know what, Jim? We shouldn’t always choose the person we love. We should choose the person who loves us.''
I just nodded and thought about it. He’s right, isn’t he? I had always thought that if I loved Jungkook enough, cared for him deeply, he would be mine and mine alone, and I would be at the top of his priority list.
But that’s not the case. I held back on my own things and made him my priority, but he will never understand that.
Flashback
Jk, let’s go somewhere today," I said.
"Nah, Jimin, not today. I have some laundry to do," he replied.
I said, "Okay, no problem."
Later, I had to go to the market. "Jk, come to the market with me," I asked.
"You know what, Jimin? You should go alone sometimes. Explore things on your own," he said.
Feeling a bit upset, I replied, "Okay."
"Will you come to the movie with me? Today? I have tickets," I asked.
"Ah, I have to study today, baby. Let’s go another time," he said.
I said, "Okay."
"Jk, will you come to the café for dinner? Have you eaten? Take care of yourself, Jk.
I always used to ask him these things.
But I never got the same kind of concern or questions back from him. Maybe I’m just overthinking it."
End of flashback
Next day
The loneliness gnawed at me, and even when i was surrounded by Tae , Hobi and Suga hyung i couldn't shake the feeling that something was missing. Jk used to be my anchor, the person i could rely on when everything else felt too much. Since yesterday, we haven't talked until now. Why should I initiate? It's not my fault, right?"