The Infinite White

Chp. 6 - The Confrontation

"I would have to say you made several mistakes in the time we were together" I growled, 

"I want you to believe me when I say I'm sorry" I scoffed and he pinned me to the cold wall again. I was starting to get angry now, but as his face inched closer and closer to mine I just grabbed it and crushed my lips to his. The feel of his lips took me back to the happy moments I had with him, the passion grew and the kiss moved from pure want to lust and passion. He pushed his body against mine and I bit his lower lip, feeling him smile through the kiss, my arms moved from his hips up his back as his lips moved from my mouth to my neck. Growling in my ear, my mind finally came back, showing me the image and him and her together. I moved my hands to his chest, 

"Stay away from me" I whispered into his ear and pushed him away from me, confusion all over his face. I wasn't quiet sure what he was going to do but luckily I didn't have to find out when Cooper opened the closet door. 

"Get out of here" Holden ordered Cooper but Cooper refused, 

"Come on Man, let her go" Cooper tried to reason with him, Holden growled and stormed out of the closet. I looked at Cooper and felt all my emotions build up inside of me and no matter how hard I tried to stop them the tears flowed. Walking into Coopers arms, I felt safe with them wrapped around me, I could feel Holden's pain, his anger and hurt, and it's how he should feel but why do I feel so bad about it? 

"Where'd you get to?" Alexis asked when I finally caught up with them at lunch, 

"I had some stuff to take care of" Jeremy eyed me suspiciously, I hadn't been lying but Jeremy was gifted, he could just look at some one and he could tell you their story, so no doubt he read what had happened in my eyes. I averted my eyes and that told him everything he needed to know, my eyes landed on Holden's table, he was missing, not a big surprise he has a high ditching rate when it comes to this school. I couldn't feel him though, it wasn't that he was far away, he wasn't in his wolf form, our bond is stronger when we're like that, he just wasn't feeling anything, like he was completely numb. I looked at Cooper and his brown eyes were looking back at mine, he mouthed 'you ok?' and I bowed my head in response. Smiling he turned back to the chick he had been talking too, 

"You still coming over to mine tonight?" Alexis asked, and I turned to look at her, her eyes were glued to me, 

"I guess so" I said, smiling hoping to reassure her everything was alright, "I have to do some stuff after school but i'll meet you there" she didn't seem to like the idea but one look from Jeremy and she didn't continue. 
How I wish that Alexis and Jeremy were each others mates, they liked each other, obviously but never went any further for fear that they would get their hearts broken when one of them finds their actual mate, and I want them to feel it too, it just pains me that I never got the real thing.

Despite what Cole said I headed for the clearing, I loved it too much to let it go, I loved him too much and I knew a part of me still did, a part of me still loves him and I hate it and it will never go away. I curse myself for not taking Cole up on his offer of staying in texas with him but I knew I couldn't no matter how much I wanted to.  

"Lily?" I looked up and Jeremy appeared from the trees, I was lying on the grass, looking up at the cloudless blue sky. I didn't say anything, I just turned my eyes back to the sky and Jeremy decided that I needed to talk even though I tried to make it seem like I didn't want to. Coming and sitting down beside me, he wasn't fully laying down he was propped up on his elbows and looked towards the river. 

"I know what happened Lil, what were you thinking?" he kept his voice calm and I didn't speak until I knew my voice was steady enough, 

"I wasn't" two simple words that held my whole life within them,