Secret Cowgirl

Chapter 20

"I understand." He says. "I don't know, I mean I wish we could or talk about it but I can't do that to Riley and Maya and you like them more than me." I shrug. "How would you know?" He asks. "I know feelings Lucas." I say. He looks down as do I. I can't explain what I feel for him its weird first I only want us as friends theni wanna date, then for some reason it crosses my mind that what if me and Farkle dated. I mean he's nice and smart and funny. But Idk if he likes me back or what's gonna happen with Lucas, Riley, Maya and I. I mean I'd like to go out with Farkle but everything seems to be out of hand to date.

"So,do you like anyone else?" He asks. Should I tell him. Maybe not. But its gthe last week...

"Umm.. I don't know its all still new to me." I say. "Who is it?" He asks. "A guy..." I shrug. "Please tell me." He says. "I don't even know if I like him." I say. "Well who is it?" He asks. "I don't want to tell you." I say. "Why not?" He asks. "Because I like you too and I'm confused and its all just blowing up in my face." I say.

"Spencer, its okay you don't have to tell me. I notice he's holding my hand as the other is shaking. Am I shaking? I stop shaking and don't pull my hand away. "Lucas, I just don't want to make the wrong decision." I say. He traces circles over the back of my hand. I feel goosebumps. "I understand." He says. I smile and look down. I text Frakle.

I need to talk to you asap meet me in the science lab in a few minutes

I look back at Lucas. "I need to go." I say. "Text you later?" He asks. "Yea sure." I nod. He smiles and we walk out. I head to the science lab and luckily its empty. I sit in a chair and start doodling and drawing. "Hey." I look up to see Farkle. "Hey." I say with a smile. He moves to the chair next to me. "What did you need to talk about?" He asks.

"Farkle, middle school is the owner of many weird feelings. I can't describe my own. The past few weeks, I've been.." I look down. "I've been thinking of you." I ssy doodling. "What about me?" He asks. "If we were to..date.." I ask still doodling. "But you and Lucas-"

"Are just friends right now." I say. I doodle a dog and a bone. "Why aren't you looking at me?" He asks. "I don't want to be awkward." I shake my head. He moves a hair that's in my fave behind my ear. I look at him. He looks at me. Feelings rush over me and one thing lead to another...

I kissed Farkle Minkus...

***

I sit at dinner. It was an amazing yet weird week. We donated the bench, I kissed Farkle, and I don't know where any of us stand in relationships.

I open my e-mails to see one from MTV... My video!

Dear Ms. Shay,

We are happy to tell you that we'd like your voice on our show. We had sent your video to Capitol records and they want you to start an album with them. Congratulations Spencer, you made it big in less than a week!

I look on my video on YouTube. 1,257,670 views! I scream. I run to everyone in the living room. "Look!" I show my parents. They read the email. "Now look." I show them the video and the views. "I went viral!" I say. "Oh, my god that's amazing!" Dad says hugging me. Lucas ans Farkle walk in. "I think you guys want to see this.." Lucas says. He goes the the channels where all the gossip about celebrities is talks about.

He flips through E!, Jimmy Fallon talking with Selena Gomez, Ellen Degeneres talking with Jason Derulo, James Corden talking with 5 seconds of summer, Extra. They are all talking about my video. I jump around. "Mom, dad we need to go!" I say. "I have a songbook. They can tweak with them, I can record them I can go to college." I say. "What's going on?" Riley asks with Maya on her side. Oh ya...

"I'm needed in LA... They want to sign me a record label and I can probably become the youtuber I've always wanted to be. I achieved something people take years to get to. I'm signing with the same people as pink Floyd, Tori Kelly, David Guetta, 5 seconds of summer. They want me. Do you mind if I go?" I ask them.

"How long will you be gone?" Lucas asks. "A month maybe. I will come right back and we can go to the beach and eat ice cream ans whatever you want to do.." I say. "You should go." Maya says. "I want you to go." Riley says. "If its what you wanted in life then go for it." Farkle says. I smile at them. Lucas looks at me. "Lucas?" I ask him. "Try to hurry back." He says. I smile. "I will."

Mom looks through the email."She emailed you 2 tickets one is one way the other is there and back." She says. "They will get me a ticket when I need it." "Mom, can you go with me? I need a lawyer to make sure they don't screw me over." I say. "Of course." She smiles. "You can use the second ticket to get back home and back to your job." I say. I look at my friends. "You guys want to help me pack?" I ask. They all nod and we walk to my room.

***

Its 3:00am and everyone drove me and mom to the airport. I give Auggie a hug and dad a hug first. I look at my friends. They all hug me at the same time. "Sing good, kid." Maya says tearing up. I tear up and laugh. "I promise. "Get me a souvenir?" Riley asks. I smile, "Of course." I look at Farkle.

"You'll do amazing." He says. I smile. "Bestest friends?" Lucas. asks. "Forever and always, Lucas." We lock our fingers together with the fingers our rings are in. "C'mon honey, the plane leaves in 30 minutes and it takes 20 minutes to get through security." Mom says behind me. I hug them all again. "I love you guys." I say. "We love you too." They all say. I close the door and Dad drives away slowly. I wave as much as I can before they leave. Memorys of Texas and Missy and the lacrosse game is all that's on my head.

They were the bestest friends I've ever had. I love them so much and they love me right back. Sure we've had our ups and downs and our left's and rights...but nothing can tear apart our bond. They are my family and I'm so happy I have them. Now I am on my way to Hollywood to start my career and to finally get into Youtubing, my dream. I turn to my mom and we walk into the airport, to new beginnings.