August 31, 2013
I thought you were buried
But hearing that
Brought you back to (my) life
Tears that were already dry
Roll down my cheeks, knowing the way
That girl can't be in love with you
I'm the one who knows you longer
I'm the one who fell for you first
I'm the one who thinks about you all the damn time
When those words left my friend's mouth
I should have felt relief
But another thing came to life
Jealousy for the second time
But way more stronger
I tried to pretend everything was okay
When clearly it was not
I couldn't even pay attention to my friends
My emotions were eating me alive
I just knew I had to escape
I managed to leave
Babbling a silly excuse
I have no idea if they know
But it was the closest they got to discover about you
I kept control of my emotions
'Till I reached my room
All I wanted to do was mope and cry
Throwing myself into bed
With a buried face in the pillow
I did exactly that
The sounds I made didn't help bury my memories
That went through my crazy mind
And they were the best and worst ones
Dropped pencil, locked eyes and you chasing me
Can't forget and probably never will
(No matter how strong is my will)
Crying in silence is what I do best
No one in my house noticed me
I'm used to it
You never did
And that is what hurts me the most,
You noticed her
Know how she feels
And even without you saying something
Is more than I ever got from you
I'm angry at her
I'm angry at you
I'm angry at me
How many times this stupid me is going to win?
Stupid because I'm already thinking of what I need to do
To show to all of them that I'm the one in love with you
Even not knowing if you feel the same way too
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Jealousy [Four Years #10]
PoetryPoem that I wrote about my crush Vincent. Because when I couldn't tell how I felt about him, I put my feelings into poetry. (This poem is part of a poetry collection called "Four Years". If you want to check the rest of the story, please ch...