I Wish Everything Would Be Alright (Justin Bieber, Jason McCann, One Direction)

9. That Kind Of Effect

Jason: oh, okay.

He lit his cigarette and breathed in. He took it out with his fucking sexy fingers right after that. I just watched him.

Jason: what?

I smiled and rested my head on his chest. His heart was beating so fast. I smiled some more. I have that kind of effect on him. There was a comfortable silence among is. All you could hear was Jason... smoking.

Jason: do you wanna go home?

Me: sure...

I got up and dressed back into my clothes. I waited for Jason to finish up and dressed.

We got home and I climbed in the window.

Jason: gnight baby girl.

Me: sweet dreams Jay. Love you.

I said that without a thought. I have myself a mental face palm.

Jason: I know...

He mumbled and left.

I just stared at him. I sighed and closed the window. I got out my phone and texted Jason.

Me: Jay... I'm not forcing you to... love me. It's not my job, I get it. I was just telling you. Wait wait wait... you know what? I'm sorry for you know... whatever I told you. I won't do it if you don't want me to.

I pressed send and changed for bed. My phone beeped.

Jay

Jason: baby girl... you know that's not what I... ugh! It's hard for me to... hurt you. I know your act like you're not hurting, but I know that I'm hurting you. I'm sorry...

I didn't reply and lay down in bed. I tucked myself in. I wonder what the gang would say if they heard about my and Jay. I groaned. My life is so complicated right now! I wanna pull all my hair out!

Someone knocked on my window. I jumped, but noticed that it was Jay. I sighed and opened the window.

Me: Jason. You have school tomorrow. You gotta go.

Jason: I'm not going.

Me: Jason, you need a good grade for college!

Jason: I'm not going to college.

Me: why not?

Jason: If my life keeps going this path, it's gonna be perfect!

Me held my hands in both of his hands. I just stared at my hands.

Me: you do realize that I have college, right?

Jason looked down, too.

Jason: yes... I know... I was thinking... I could go with you after...

I looked up.

Me: after what?

Jason: the gang and your family approves...?l

Me: good luck with that.

Jason: babe, I'm ready to tell them! No matter what the cost is!

I shook my head.

Jason: okay then. I'm ready. So whenever you want, you can tell them.

Me: it's not that. You're not the only one who zayn would torture. He tortures everyone around you, Jay.

Jason stared at me.

Jason: so what ever this is,

He gestured at both of us.