Fell For You

A Friend; Nothing More, Nothing Less.

"It doesn't take an idiot to know he has feelings for you."

My blank stare only increased and so did her Cheshire grin. Geez can she take a hint.

"He's the hottest freshman in La Push, believe it or not. He's always around you, wonder why when you walk the halls girls gawk, because you're the perfect height couple. He smiles down at you when you laugh and sometime you sit on his lap at the cafeteria." She explained. I could sense envy laced in her tone. Girls stare at us when we walk the halls, I didn't even know.

"All of which best friends do. And that time I sat on his lap it didn't even last for more than a minute. We were just joking aroung." I state, but somehow I try to convince myself that.

"Fine, but do you remember the time in English class, where Seth told an hilariously funny joke and you died laughing. The teacher had to send you out to stop you from laughing. We all watched you leave. But what you didn't know is, when you were dead laughing he was just smiling and staring at you in awe. That pretty much sounds like he has feelings for you to me." She said, her smile never faltering.

I blink repeatedly my gaze falling from her face. I was confused and lost. I didn't know what to think, I didn't even want to be in the school grounds anymore. I just wanted to hug my fluffy pillow and rest on my bouncy comfty bed.

My best friend wasn't crushing on me. And I sure as hell am no crushing on him either. That's the end of that.

Just then the bell rang.

"I-" she was about to continue but I cut her off abruptly.

"I have somewhere to be." I quickly blurted and rushed out, I could feel her gaze on my back.

"OH, OKAY. Umm bye!" she called after me.

(After school)

I sighed and played with my hair twirling it and untwirling it. Sitting in the garage with Jacob never was boring. But I had way to much on my mind. There was shuffling then a chair scraped. I looked up and saw Jacob taking a sit next to me.

"Why'd you come here?" He asks before adding, "Well I don't have a problem with you being here. It's just that you're not here usually on weekdays."

I shrugged, "Maybe I just wanted to see my cousin. How are things going?"

He sighed. "Now I really know somethings up. What's wrong?"

Ugh, seriously, hiding something from my favorite cousin his like hiding a car in the garage.

I sighed and ran my fingers through my already messy hair from brushing it continously with my fingers.

"I miss Embry, Jake, usually I'd tell him stuff about well, anything. But now he's all bulky and the only person closest to me that he talks to is Kristina and she won't tell me what they talk about. And I just...miss him." I whisper, my voice cracking.

Jacob hugs me in comfort, we pulled away a few minutes later and he still looked curious.

"What's up with you and Seth then?" He ask.

I felt my cheeks get hot.

"W-What. Nothing. Why would you think anythings up. Hehe, everythings fine. Stop thinking about it. Seriously though, stop." I rushed out in a bubbling mess. I realized I talked too fast and that was an obvious hint before giving him a nervous chuckle and a smile to cover up.

Shit.

He snickered. "Firstly, I know because you just said that, and secondly you always go to Seth for your problems and if you guys had an argument or something happened you'd go to Embry. He was practically your second best friend in the whole wide universe. And then when both of them turn out to be asshats, you come complaining to me." Jacob explained.

I sigh and bury my face in my open palms.

When did my world turn upside down like this?

"That's exactly it." I said, my voice muffled by my hands.

"Is it puberty?" He asked slowly, unsure.

I quickly looked up, amused and shocked at his statement, "What does puberty have to do with this?!"

He shrugged. "Everything."

"I don't know." I mumbled under my breath, my eyes scanning unnecessary things to take my mind off the topic.

"Are you starting to have feelings for him?" He aksed calmly.

"..."

"Mel."

"I dont know...Maybe, Ugh, it's just so confusing. I can't like my best friend Jake, it would ruin our friendship."

"...What makes you think he won't return your feelings?" He asked.

I peaked at him past my fingers and groaned, glaring at him.

"Can we not go there, please?" I whined.

"I hate to admit it but come on Mel, you guys are so cute and adorable togather it was bound to happen sooner. Especially when you're both in your teens, the way he looks at you and the way you smile at him. Yadda yadda. You both have this magical thing going on. And I mean, I wish it were like this for Bella and me but it can't. I mean it could but she's seeing this-"

I tuned out when the name Bella Swan left his lips, it would obviously turn to an all out Bella Swan conversation, I knew this. But at least I got something out of him.

But that wasn't what I wanted, maybe it was what I needed but it didn't satisfy my immense emotional swirl of confusion, it only increased it. I just wanted someone to look me straight in the eye and tell me it's wrong. It's so wrong to start...to start seeing Seth in a way different than a best friend. Because that's all he is supposed to be right? My best friend...nothing more, nothing less.