Of Monsters and Men (yuri x otabek)

Let Go

I shake my head. "Ugh, I'm really sorry about him."

Otabek smiles. "Don't worry about it, I think he's cute."

**

"So what do you need me to help you with?" I ask him as I climb into his car. Oh God, I didn't think I was going to be back in here so quickly after last night. Pale sunlight streaks through the windows as he pulls out of the driveway. It's actually kind of warm today, I'm surprised, it's making me feel really happy. Or is it because I'm with Otabek right now?

"Mila and I have been planning our wedding a lot recently," He starts and my heart immediately drops. "We're trying to figure out where a nice place would be to have it, but we can't seem to make up our minds on the location. Mila's picked a lot of places, but I don't exactly like any of them. But when I was driving back from your house yesterday, I saw this really nice space, and I think she'll like it too. I just, I want someone else's opinion on it first. And I trust your opinion, so..."

I force a smile onto my face. "Alright, yeah, I can check it out for you."

He nods, looking happy. I can just imagine it now, them together at the altar, looking deeply into each other's eyes, saying their vows, then kissing to seal their marriage-I put my hand over my heart, it feels like it's constricting inside of me. Why does it hurt so damn much?

We drive for a while through town before we stop at a what looks like a large garden surrounded by rose bushes and hedges. It's placed beside an old, but beautiful rustic church. We walk until we reach the centre of the garden, there's colourful flowers and a large fountain perched in the middle with a small pond nearby. There are a lot of statues too, most of them decorated with wreaths of white roses and sunflowers. Garlands of lilac flowers and daisies hang a long some of the hedges and are woven into bushes. Even in winter this place still looks so amazing, it's beautiful really.

Otabek wants to get married here.

I look at him, he's watching me. "Do you like it? It's kind of cheesy though right?" He laughs nervously.

"No, this is beautiful Otabek, I think Mila will love this." I say softly, the lump is back in my throat.

He sighs loudly in relief. "Really? You think so? Oh, thank god, I really wasn't sure you know?"

I nod. It hurts so much.

"Yuri? Are you alright? You're crying,"

I touch my cheek quickly, it's wet. Shit, am I really crying right now? I hate myself, I'm so pathetic. "I-I'm fine, I'm sorry, can we go?" I turn and start walking away quickly, not wanting him to see how big of a mess I am, but he grabs my arm.

"Are you sure you're OK?" He presses.

"I'm fine, t-this place is just really nice, it's making me emotional, sorry, I'm embarrassing." I force myself to say through sobs, the tears won't stop falling.

"Hey," He says softly, I feel his arms wrap carefully around me from behind. My breath hitches in my throat as he hugs me gently. "It's OK," He whispers into my neck.

"Mhm," Is all I can say. He's only doing this because he knows that I'm sad, but still, I turn to face him and hug him tightly, putting my face deep into his chest. I should take advantage of it before he pulls away, and leaves me behind. He doesn't look at me like how he looks at Mila, he wants to be with her, not me. Three years apart, we've never been this close, he's going to be even farther away eventually, I just want to hold him for a second, before-

He moves away from me slowly then. "Do you want me to buy you something to eat? I don't think you had breakfast this morning,"

I wipe the rest of my tears away, accepting the reality of the situation. "Sure, thank you."