L.I.T (Love In Trouble) || Nalissa & Jalissa

2. Fly Back To Me

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The house was quiet and I with that I can tell that everyone's out. I'm literally in my bed all day, actually I spend a lot of time in my room than going out since Neels left. I just don't feel like socializing. For the past week, I usually spend most of my day thinking of him and waiting for his call. If not, i'm in my bed watching vlogs from some of my youtube friends.

I was in the middle of watching Tessa's first ever vlog when my stomach starts to growl.

I waited until the video was finished and then went immediately downstairs to get some food in the kitchen.

I decided to make some salad for my dinner.

I kinda regret not going with the squad because of the delicious food but too late I already decided not to go.

I was eating my salad alone in the kitchen when my phone rang.

it was Neels.

finally, the long wait is over

"hey" I answered the phone excitedly

"we need to talk" he started with a serious tone

"I mean we're already talking" I said trying to lighten the mood

"Listen, Alissa. I need to tell you something"

"okay?" 

" I got a modeling job in London offered after this campaign and I know that you know how badly I want this"

"so what are you trying to say, Neels?"

he remained silent

"because if what you're trying to say is that you'll not be able to be home for a couple of months  then i'm okay with it"

"What i'm trying to say is that, you have the option to go or let me go"

"No, Neels. Yes I may have an option but you're the one who made those options for me that left me with no choice"  I started sobbing

"that's not the point"

"what's the point of choosing if i'll only get hurt if I choose either of the two" I said and now i'm crying

"You need to choose Alissa because if you don't-" he paused

"then what?" I questioned him raising my voice

"i'll be force to choose the third option, my option and that is to go and let you go" He said and ended the call

I throw my phone in the floor out of anger including the salad that I made for myself.

I am mad, sad, hurt and angry at the same time.

I don't know what to feel

My face is a mess because of crying; my makeup is all over my face especially my mascara

I want to break everything in this house 

I am screaming, shouting and crying the whole time good thing no one's home

I don't know what to do

I continued my emotional breakdown when I heard a familiar voice behind me

"are you okay?" I heard Jake's voice behind me

I am seated in one of the stairs' step

My eyes widened in shock

why is he here?

I tried to wipe my tears and hide my frustrations

"yea, i'm just sick and not feeling well" I lied

"Are you sick of loving Neels and not feeling like talking about it so you  make some lame excuses saying that you're sick and unwell?" he said and clearly caught me off guard 

I felt embarrassed when I realize that he heard and saw everything that I just did

I covered my face with both of my hands out of embarrassment

I felt him sat in one of the steps beside me

"i'm sorry, I didn't know that you're here. I thought I was alone" I apologized to Jake

He just gave me a small smile

"And by the way, why are you even here?" I asked out of curiosity

"I'm sick and not feeling well, like literally" He stated

I chuckled after hearing him said those words.

"You should laugh and smile more often" he paused "it looks good in you" he added

"If you feel that, that'll make me feel better then you really are not feeling well" I told him

He laughed

"do you wanna talk about it?" He ask hesitantly

I shook my head "I want to talk but I don't wanna talk about it"

Jake smirked and said "okay, then"

We spend the whole night seating on the stairs talking about a lot of random topics except for Neels.