We stayed in the same position until momma dun came down and told us supper was ready. I didn't really want to move but I was hungry so I did.
After we ate I had to gather my things and head home. I wish I could stay and just lay in Josh's arms forever but there's school tomorrow and I told my mom i'd be home today.
I said goodbye to Josh's mom and then gave Josh a hug and a kiss that lasted a few seconds because I didn't want to go. "I'll see you tomorrow, yeah?" Josh said while rubbing my back I had my arms wrapped around him not wanting to leave. I gave a small nod and forced myself out to my car and drove home.
When I got home I was greeted by my mom. She gasped loudly putting a hand over her mouth as she saw the bruise on my cheek. I told her what happened and showed her my stomach. She then told me to go shower while she called the school about what happened today. She was used to calling whenever Rian, Sam and Brendon would hurt me.... Which was quite often.
I went upstairs and got a shower. Then got ready for bed. I couldn't sleep so I decided to text Josh hoping he wasn't in bed asleep already.
Me: Josh?
Are you awake?
Josh: yes... Is something wrong?
Me: no....
Josh: Tyler
Me: Jish
Josh*
Josh: no I like jish better
But seriously whats wrong?
Me: I can't sleep
Josh: why?
Me:... I know I have to tell my parents about being gay and dating you at some point but I'm scared and I know I'm probably just over thinking it but ..idk. Their gonna hate me
Josh: don't say that their not gonna hate you and if they do I'll beat some sense into them
Josh being so protective made me smile slightly.
Me: okay... But what do I do if they get mad? What if they kick me out? What if they want nothing to do with me?
I felt tears run down my cheeks
Josh: then you'll come live with me and my mom.
Me: really? Your mom wouldn't mind
Josh:no my mom wouldn't mind... my mom absolutely loves you she thinks your great she wouldn't care at all.
I smile again. Knowing that if my parents take it badly I'll have somewhere to stay.
Me: thanks
Josh: no problem... You should try to sleep so your not falling asleep in class tomorrow.
Me: but I miss you
Josh: I miss you too but it's late
Me: jooosssshhhh
Josh: tyyyylllleeerrrr
Me: I want cuddles
Josh: I wish I could cuddle you I miss having you in my arms.
Me: I miss being in your arms
Josh: how about first thing tomorrow when I see you I'll give you a hug?
Me: deal
Josh: okay now it's late bedtime
Me: but
Josh: no buts bedtime mister
Me: okay dad
Josh: I didn't know you had a daddy kink Tyler ;)
Me: JOSH!
Josh: I'm just kidding
Me: you better be
Josh: now seriously go to bed
Me: ):
Josh: goodnight ty
Me: WAIT!
Josh: whhaatt
Me: do you want a drive to school tomorrow?
Josh: sure thanks
Me: your welcome
Josh: okay goodnight ty
Me: but Josh
Josh: GOODNIGHT TY
Me: *dramatically sighs* goodnight jish
Josh: <3
Me: <3
I shut my phone off and tried to sleep again. I tossed and turned for about an hour before finally falling asleep around 12:30.
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I woke up screaming in a cold sweat around 3am. I felt like I couldn't breathe. Tears were streaming down my cheeks and soft sobs escaped my throat as I hugged my knees.
I can't get myself to calm down. I shakily grab my phone off the nightstand and call Josh I hope he doesn't mind but I need to talk to someone to try and calm down.
A/N ~ schools been cancelled the last 2 days because of storms so I'll update as soon as I can get on wifi.
Love you! Bye❤
~Squish
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Rubik's Cube (Joshler)
FanfictionJosh is new to Tyler's school. The story of two boys who's minds are like a jumbled up Rubik's cube that no one seems to know how to solve. That is until they run into to each other in the hall (literally).
CHAPTER 20: But I Miss You
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