The girl they will never have

26.

After the same process of repeating five more times,I gave up. I laid down looking at the note. The handwriting was somewhat illegible yet I tried with every letter in its place.

I was literally angry. My whole planned entertainment flopped. Riding the horses of my brain,I took a deep breath and came across the point that why would a guy simply give me his personal account information to any girl just because he liked her. Huh!! Even married couples wouldn't share such dangerous information with each other. And here I was happy thinking that a guy trusted me so much as to give me that. 

Keeping my feelings at bay,I decided to sleep. The day had been terribly longer . I crept into my bed,with the comforter covering me warmly. I didn't had to think about any thing else and wait for sleep,coz I'm already sleepy,unlike the other days. 

With sleep taking over,I vaguely remembered the terrace,Zaid,the talks and everything that happened. And then came the darkness.

Next morning I woke up at six. That was too early for me to get up but I had no disturbance. Rolling into the bed and snuggling deeper,I smiled having a heart content sleep. And that was rarely possible. Last night hit me like a storm. Remembering everything,I did not like whatever that happened yesterday. 

I rolled off my bed and sat at the window looking over the small garden we had. There was the clear sky and fresh air. Because my window was large enough to fit me in,I grabbed the comforter and spread it. I laid down and stared at the sky and thinking nothing. It felt good and slowly sleep overtook me.

I was now ready and at the bus stop. I felt like I hadn't slept the whole night. When you sleep for a hour on a school morning,it exactly looks like five minutes. I was now opening my eyes wider so as to get rid of my sleep. Because the school was off for most days of the football season.it started from today. Like who the heck would get up on the next day when everyone's having a hangover.

I entered the bus and spotted Mila who was.......sleeping?  she had her head placed on the window. I went and sat by the empty seat next to her. Not wanting to wake her up,I sat silently,dreading school more than ever. 

We reached school and Em was nowhere seen. Waking Mila,we got down and headed to the lockers. Mila went to the washroom and I had all the books needed from both mine and Mila's locker. I turned around waiting for her to come back. I never went in the washroom,not wanting to see whatever went in there and also because of me being slightly an OCD. 

Roll the drums if you want to but rather hit them on me coz there's Usan walking in my direction. He looked at me,no,stared at me with a smirk on his face.  Not wanting to come up as being affected by him,I stood there looking around,completely ignoring him. The sleepiness didn't help either. My mood dropped even more when I felt that he was ten steps away from me. 

Praying that he doesn't come and does anything,I stood there looking straight ahead. He was to my right. Oh no,no,no, he was walking towards me,alone. I think I will just pretend that I didn't listen and ignore him. 

Five steps 

Four steps 

Three

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