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"The blood results might take about a day to give us answers. So if you want to know soon, then you could take this, there's a bathroom down the hall"

"O-oh ok"

The doctor left the room. Armin out his face into my shoulder. I was left there without knowing what to do or say.

"Sh-should I take it?"

Armin's voice was shaking.

"I think it would be a good idea. Would you rather wait an entire day to know, or wait 5 minutes?"

"But if it's positive, then I'll know"

"How about this, you take the test, and come back here before you know the answer. We'll look at it together"

Armin took a deep breath. "Ok"

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I watched my fiancée walk out of the room and down the hall to the bathroom. I was left alone with my own thoughts.

Why had I wished for Armin's birth control to not work. Armin wouldn't want to carry a child. No matter how nurturing his personality can be, we just aren't ready financially, or probably mentally.

A few minutes later Armin walked back into the room with the pregnancy test in his hand. He sat down next to me without saying a word and just stared at it.

"Do you know how much longer until we'll know?". I felt dumb for asking that question because I probably knew the answer, but the silence was killing me.

"Probably about a minute or so."

We sat there in silence for about 50 seconds when the test beeped.

"Ready?"

"R-ready"

Armin uncovered the test with his hand and we stared at the stick of plastic.

Negative

"OH THANK GOD"

Armin hugged me and started doing this weird laugh thing he does when he's relieved, I find it fucking adorable.

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We were sitting at home having some soup for dinner (we didn't want to eat anything heavy for Armin's sake) when we got a call from our doctor.

Armin nervously answered the phone.

"H-hello"

"Hi. We got your test results back"

"What-what did they say?"

"You just had a stomach virus, you should be fine in a few days, just make sure you don't eat foods that are too heavy and if you start feeling nauseous, just drink something carbonated or take some pepto bismol."

I heard Armin give a sigh of relief.

"Ok thank you"

Armin gave a sigh of relief and sat back down at the table.

"What'd they say?"

"It's just a virus, they said that I should be fine in a few days."

"Well that's good"

"Yeah"

Am I a terrible person for mentally saying dammit?
But he seemed so relieved when his tests came back negative, so why would he want kids right now? We could just adopt right?

We figured that after dinner we would just go to bed since we had a long day, and Armin needed rest. We drifted off to sleep and the next thing I knew, I was starting to have to the weirdest but also a great dream.

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Sorry that I've been really weird with when I update, I had time off of school this week so I figured I would write two chapters, but weekends that I don't have time off of school, I'm really busy with figure skating. So again I'm rlly sorry about how random I am with updating this story. Also PLEASE comment feedback for what u might want to see in the next chapter or two. I'm starting to run out of ideas. Sorry for any grammar or spelling errors