Dead Wishes

Confused

We walked around looking for Mags but couldn't find her. Jasper and I had another conversation about the roses that were here. It seemed as if this was an endless garden of roses. They were so pretty though. 

Jasper still held the wilted rose and put it in his sketch book. I loved book pressed flowers it just took time. So maybe I'll still that from him later I thought to myself.

He stopped at a bench near the entrance of the park. " Cameron can I tell you something? " this wasn't going to be good. It is never good news when people say this. "Cameron I think I like you but I don't know honestly. " He said nervously and stood in front of me.

My face turned a bit red when he said that. I mean I think I liked him too but I don't want to tell him my life is nightmares at the moment. Who knows this could just be a nightmare too. "Jasper I-i think I like you too." I said hesitating and almost chickening out.

I don't know what I was doing but I had to do something. I was trying to think of what to do at the moment but knowing me this is just my thoughts. I never knew what to do and that was what scared me.

I looked at Jasper who seemed shock because we barley even knew each other that much. I stepped closer to him and hugged him like it would be the last. When he hugged me back I felt this sharp pain in my chest. It hurt so much but I didn't let him go.

The pain disappeared as I broke the hug and kissed him. The pain was still there but I Ignored it as best as I could. He was shocked when I did that but he kissed back and moved back. "Cameron?" He questioned holding my hand and pulled me into a hug.

"Yeah?" I said scared of what would happen.

"I wasn't suppose to fall in love with anyone. Also I feel like you weren't supposed to either." He said pecking my lips. A smile appeared on my face as I saw his and he was right. I wasn't suppose to fall in love either. I had a good reason but what was his.

I held his hand in mine as the day continued on and we sat on the bench. I took his sketch book and started to doodle a rose. He held his hand in mine and the pain came back in my chest and this time throughout my whole body.

I'm here Cameron what the hell are you doing! This is unexceptional just head back to Dester now! When he finds out you'll wish he never met you. You just want me to make your life more difficult. Well that's a deal Cameron.

I dropped the pencil and was going to pick it up but Jasper did. He had this charming smile that made me smile. The pain started to get worst and that's when Jasper looked at me. He didn't know I was going through this hell and I didn't want him to know.

"Cameron I love you but I can't fall in love. " He said holding my hand and kissed my forehead.  " Me too Jasper."
I hugged him and hoped he'd be here forever. I wish that Jasper doesn't get hurt by me. I said to myself hugging him.

I stood up when I heard Mags calling for me. " I'll see you in school Jasper. " I said giving him a quick hug and the sketch book. I closed it so he can see the drawing later. I waved by and Mags ran into me.  "Come in Cameron we got to go." Mags said quickly dragging me behind her.

See you in Dester  soon Cameron.

I ran behind Mags as fast as I could and we ended up back at the house. "Pack your stuff and I'll take you home."

I was lost because Mags kept speaking fast. "Cameron I'm sorry I really am. Why didn't you tell me. I could have kept you at home if I kn-"  Mags raised her voice and stopped quickly. Her eyes showed fear as I stood there.

Come on Cameron before you kill the woman of fright.

My heart rate started to slow down when Mags walked away from me. Breathing was almost impossible as I fell to the floor on my knees gasping for air. What the hell was happening to me?

Was I drowning or just suffocating?
I grabbed my chest and tried to stand up but failed. When I tried to breathe I ended up gaging and puking. Mags was sitting from a distance dialing someone for help and crying. I scared Mags. 

When I was getting air back into my lungs I started coughing up blood. The pain in my body was awful. I need help someone please! I yelled to myself. I got up and my knees buckled. Hitting the floor I held my chest and screamed In pain. "I'm sorry Claris-!"I yelled before going unconscious.

Cameron you never listen I told you to leave. You'll be dead sooner than I thought because of him.

I couldn't hear anything but I just hope Jasper's okay.

               |○~Aurthor's Note~○|

《Sorry I haven't updated in a while. It's been nothing but testing this month. I hope you like this update. It may be cheap now but it'll get better promise. Anywhos I hope you enjoyed reading the book and this chapter.
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