The young lovers ( ponyboy fanfic)

Chapter 19

"You're a real nice girl and everything. I guess I kinda do. Why?"

"I don't know, Pony. It's just that... I can't get what happened out of my head."

"You don't feel the same way...?" he asks, sounding a little hurt and confused.

"No! I do. It's just... It's complicated."

"It doesn't have to be. We'll keep our mouths shut, no one will know, and everything's alright. We're just kids, you know."

"I guess you're right, but everything's just too fast for me."

"What do you mean?"

"This is too quick. I can't do this right now." I get up from the table and almost trip over the chair in my state of nervousness. I begin shaking my hands a little to try and get rid of the anger rising in me. Soda and Darry are obviously up since they walk into the living room towards the kitchen. I walk past them as Ponyboy follows behind.

"Kaylee, wait a second," he says.

"I- I need t- to get out." I walk out the front door.

"What was that all about?" Soda asks.

"I don't know," Pony replies. "I'm gonna go talk to her."

"No. Let her cool down," Darry tells him. I know he's resisting his oldest brother's orders, but I'm sure he listens anyway. I begin walking aimlessly to clear my head. I hope I didn't sound too upset with him. He's been nothing but nice. I'm just really moody lately. I guess because I'm still getting used to being here. I'm honestly going through a lot. I just lost my dad, my mom moved away, and I'm stuck here without any other contact with my family. I look around my surroundings. It's so much better here than my own little world. Sometimes the one that's most corrupted can be more beautiful than the perfect one created in your mind. I guess I'm just saying that. I've been thinking strange stuff like that lately. I'm not sure why. Must be my thoughts running wild again.

Now they lead me to Ponyboy again. I'm not trying to turn our friendship into some cliche, dramatic love story. How could anyone? I'm just confused. It's all happening too fast for me. Today I just found out his true, non-drunken words explaining how he feels about me. All because I can't shut up. I guess this time it messed me up, maybe not for the worst.

Though I feel like he's trying to get me to understand something. Maybe he knows something that I don't. Maybe I'm just thinking the opposite of him. A nice relationship between us could work, but what about the others? What would they think?

If we truly cared for each other, I guess the other's opinions don't matter. They can think what they want, but they've all told me I'm kinda like Ponyboy. We are pretty close, and we were then too. I guess nobody would be surprised if we got together, but it would be strange to be something more with my best friend. Though... We did things that we have to hide unless we'd like an early death.

"Kaylee!" a voice calls behind me. "Wait up!" Two-Bit catches up to me and pats me on the back.

"Hey, Two-Bit," I greet him a little glumly.

"Hey, why the long face?"

"I don't know. I'm just thinking."

"About what?" he asks.

"Things that only a girl would find complicated."

"Tell me about it."

"Are you sure?" I ask. "Two-Bit, it's kinda weird that you're gonna actually listen to it."

"I got nothing better to do. Besides, a
problem of yours I'll be glad to help with," he answers with a reassuring smile.

"Aren't you a sweet kid?" He laughs. "I can't believe I'm about to tell you this, but uh... I think I like someone."