F.A.M.I.L.I.A

California Love

I knew what she was referring to when she made the comment about putting me away, but I was more surprised when she asked me if I thought about killing myself. We pulled up to the house before I got a chance to respond. I could feel theirs eyes on me waiting for me to say something. As much as I don't like having other folks worry about me, this is the reason why I am the way I am because I push folks away before they can get to close me. I pushed Caine away once I found out that he was Skylar's father, I pushed away Reggie which in my defense was a good thing. The two I try to push away are these two women, yet they keep coming back stronger than before. And truth be told it's a little scary for me to depend on them so much. Maybe it's time to let down that barbed wire fence from around my heart and let them in.

After this maybe it would be good if I went away for a little bit, you know get myself together. No Jaya that's not what we meant, we aren't putting you away, Li said. It's not yall putting me away if I voluntarily go on my own. That's not what you wanna do Jaya, I know you, better than you know yourself going away is only gonna make you go further into yourself we want you to depend on us, we will carry your burdens the same way you carry ours. You mean that Ti? I don't know what Li and I can do to make you understand that you are no longer alone all the shit that you went through in the past, you aren't dealing with it on your own any more. I just need yall to love me. You know we love you. Girl we've been through some crazy ass shit for your love and look where we are in California.

Yeah we in California to commit murder though. I wouldn't say murder I would say it's cleansing the streets of a scum bag. How about we not worry about this for a little bit and enjoy this beautiful house by the beach. I can get with that, but I got one request. What's that babe? I wanna see the two of you in some hot ass 2 pieces bathing suits. Jaya! Come on yall been working hard getting my bodies back in shape I wanna see them now. Will that make you happy and take your mind off this, Li said? Yeah it will! Okay then what color you wanna see me in?

~Li~

Red, and Ms. Strawberry I want you in white! You want us looking like a whole candy cane out on that beach. That's only if yall roll around in the sand making out. Oh wait that would make me even happier to see that. You got jokes Jaya I am not getting sand in my hair nor I am going in the water so don't ask. Oh you going in that water if I have to drag your ass in there Ti. Do it and see if you get sex? That ain't a threat baby cause you know I can get it, all I gotta do is get real close to you and start kissing on your neck and boom legs spread and moaning starts she said dapping me up as we laughed. Okay think that she said licking her lips at us but when you ain't tasting this sweetness for the next three months we will see how good your game is. She must forgot my head game is strong Jaya said laughing as we went into the house.

Damn this shit is nice as hell. I said looking around at the house. It's ours for the next week and a half. Week and a half! Yeah we need a few days of recon work we need to know how he operates and I wanna make sure his kids aren't around when it goes down. Maybe that should be our first area to study Ti said. What do you mean? I mean I am not really sure if those are his kids per say. Like his baby mama is shady as hell and those kids look nothing like him. Here why don't we set the equipment up and then we can look into it. Alright yall do that I am a call check on our babies Jaya said grabbing her phone and going in the kitchen.

You seriously think those aren't his kids? They can't be, his ass is black and Mexican ,yet his daughter look Asian as hell and has brownish blue eyes his son, his son don't look nothing like him Li. Like for real Izzy looks more like him than he does. Please don't ever let Jaya hear you say that and Kennedy has gray eyes. Yeah but that's a common trait from Jaya's side, Jesse nor Donovan have that feature, but they have one feature that all three of our kids have and that's the wild hair curly hair. And those almond shaped eyes. Yeah, my poor little baby her eyes be so big she scare herself when she look in the mirror. You wrong for taking her in there and showing her the mirror of course she's gonna be scared. She's gotta see how beautiful she is I said. All of our babies are beautiful! They really are. Okay the babies are cool, Reina said for us to bring her something back.