date me // yangyang ft. jaemin [completed√ ]

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【 NEO HIGH REPOST 】 ～Credits to owner

Dont only be the dreamer, be the chaser
by: @Liu_Yangyang

Hello. This is my account that i used to get updated with the news at school lately. I just changed my username due to my leave and wanted to write my inspiration on my latest journey, where I am now, how I reached the top this early. It was surprising just the day before the celebration party that was held, was the same day where I made a decision to accept the scholarship offered by the principal. It was a last minute yet it was a chance that even myself can hardly get.

I didn't meant to leave the school, to leave all of you. Some won't mind and some continued to not mind. I have learned in the years of my living, so much that I don't want to stop but it was worth it. Worth the wait, worth the hardwork, worth all the blood, sweat and tears and efforts I poured in. I learn for myself, I learn for good. It was a decision I've made since I was younger. To not only make family and friends proud but for my own good. I was happy, proud but it wasn't the end. I don't know what will come in the future. Didn't matter if you're a genius, an average student or the one's lacking. We all have been there at some point. Fate sometimes will change, sometimes would stays but a person will continue on dreaming if they wanted a change. So am I.

I didn't want to leave with concern in others. I don't have any other intention than chasing my dream. I haven't and I will still keep on dreaming cause I haven't ended my mission. I didn't want people to end up being a failure forever. You will be useless if you never try to learn. I believe everyone have the ability and have the rights to use it so don't waste it. From now on, just keep on dreaming. As impossible as it is, make it real. Don't let others stop you. Use the ability to dream hard, work hard, play hard. Study harder. Focus on achieving something and help others to do the same. One day, everything will paid off, it would do good to you.

The last of all, I would like to thank all of you for reading this and for all the endless support for being by my side, for the memories made, to the teachers, students and friends. Respect one another, don't invade privacy, don't change other's opinions like yours. You'll never know until your own lessons are learned. Please let this departure to all of your knowing. I just don't want to make her uncomfortable.

Will miss this school, a lot.

                     一 Liu Yangyang

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A message of thousand reads, only one person that never get to read it. She didn't want to enter the website of lies. The useless news. Jaemin cant hep but to find source from it, the story behind his sudden leave, reading one post aloud, the first one he saw.

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She tried to catch her breath, wary eyes were roaming to look around her surrounding. It was oddly foreign. Crowded, noisy, and of course, foreigners around were unfamiliar to her. Looking around, turning her body 360° to scan. It was her first time going straight to the airport without any family member, without permissions, without hesitation- without specific reasons but to look back into her past, her legs dragged her all the way here. To find the person she have been missing these days. To search for this guy, focusing in the crowd for his figure.

The person she find she have lost the chance- the opportunity to be with him, even just temporarily. The crazy things happened before they even know each other. Her heart ached, no signs of him, not the figure she always bumped into, not the boy that would smile at her. The voice of him trying to converse in multi language, the laughter he rarely make. It was playing in her mind.

He was nice, smart. Effortlessly interesting. Not to mention, good looking as ever. His little smile would make her heart flutter, cant help but to smile in return. And when he wiggled his eyebrow jokingly, her heart seemed to explode. She found it cute,, that it hurts.

Chunhua knows she's going to miss him. This guy she had to deal with because of a freaking rumor. A rumor that she tried to ignore, but a rumor that he wanted to be real. By the help of that, they could just know each other.

Her heartbeat that kept on accelerating in silence, seemed to have its loud beating in her eardrums. A feeling that she wont forget, uneasy, guilty, and regretful.

An answer that was not a choice, but a decision.

The boy that followed her all the way to the airport have his chest heaving up and down in tire, trying to gather for air to breath in. Jaemin stared straight to the girl she chased. Her eyes were reddish, teary, a face full of concern. She stopped and look back at him, no clues of him. Disappointed and worried. She called his name, scenes in the past start to flash.

Her teary eyes signalled at her friend, saying 'He's not here. He's nowhere.' He knows that he is always in her mind and that he will always stays in her heart.

She understand what's the meaning of rejection. She finally know and understand the feeling of being rejected. How he would feel, and how she is now. She was brave, ready to handle and face problems but never as this. She suddenly felt scared, as if her whole world just shut down. They say, expect the unexpected but she wasn't ready at all to face the truth.

Her breath slightly hitched in soft sobs, eyes were fixated at him, still not to break the contact with her friend. Jaemin were looking at her in worry, she slightly bit her lower lip, her eyebrow showing an expression that she's worried too. Confused, unsure. She wiped away a tear that just escaped her eye while looking at him, taking small steps slowly. Pursing her lips, she spoke, "You're not gonna leave me, won't you?"

By the question, his heart broke. By the question, he know this was going to happen, how she's going to hurt in the end. A hope that died, it needed explanation. He just wanted to pull her into a tight embrace, not to let go to comfort her,, and he did. He softly muttered, "I won't. and i will not."

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☆ [070119] author's note: this is so sad
why did i wroTe tHAt

sigh, this relationship is so nice
where can i get a jaemin

🔮 qotd;
any theories of upcoming plot?