Diana: 4 months in the UK

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"I know. I'm sorry bro, I just-" I stop myself and end up breaking into small sobs. I release all my anger and frustrations through my tears. I feel Ashton give me and hug, and I cling on to him. He seems to be all I have, now that Diana has exited my life. I cry and cry and cry until I cry myself dry. 

I pull myself together and let go him. A small, prominent wet splotch is visible on his left shoulder. 

"Sorry about that man." I wipe away any more evidence of my vulnerable self before sitting down on the bed. 

"It's alright, dude. What are friends for?" He's such a great friend even though he is brutally honest, he has been there for me through thick and thin and is literally like the older brother I never had. I couldn't be more grateful for someone like him in my life who is able to take the time out to care for me like a real friend. 

I've always had trouble making "real friends". They would only be friends with me so they could play the latest Fifa game or so they could use my computer for "homework." I've been through friends like pairs of socks and none have latest like Ashton or Luke. Even Calum, but that was a hole too big to repair. 

"Oh, I was going to ask you if, um, Shaye and I could hang out in here because, well you know." He trails off and I start to get a gross image of them doing the dirty. 

"Why didn't you say so? You could have prevented this whole catastrophe." Gosh, Irwin. "Sure though, I'll leave you to it." I send him a winky face and walk myself out to find Shaye directly in front of me. 

"Have you been here the whole time?" 

"Yeah, sorry." 

"Well I'll leave it to you guys then." I receive a wave and then walk down the hall to find Calum and Diana talking like the best friends they are. Damn, that little bugger might actually be able to steal her away from me. 

{ diana } 

No one is here apart from Calum, Bryar, Niall and I.Luke and Jak went to the shop to buy some more food, God only knows where Michael Clifford is and Shaye and Ashton have hit the bedroom like usual.

We've been talking about life Having those kinds of nights. We talk serious, then one of us makes an inappropriate joke about something which changes the whole mood and eventually we end up bursting into fits of laughter. 

"Can you believe that we're all leaving tomorrow for London? That is so unreal." These 3 weeks in Ireland have been amazing. 

"I know right! It still feels like we only just arrived." Calum chimes in. 

"I'm going to miss you guys so much." Niall pouts. He is not only the coolest Irish person I've ever met but also one who can eat the most. 

"Aw, we'll miss you heaps too Niall!" We all go in for a group hug around Niall, and for some reason I feel some extra arms added to the pile. I look up and see that Ashton, Shaye, Luke, Jak and Michael have all joined in. 

"Guys, I just want to say something." Niall breaks free from the circle and stands up. 

"I'm not usually one for sappy goodbye's but I feel like it is necessary. You guys have been the best and the time we have spent together is literally the time of my life. Even though we've had some ups and downs, like Jak's hospital visit and the party, we all stuck together and made it. You guys are my best friends and I know you all will go far in life." I can see how hard he is trying to hold all the tears in behind his blue eyes and I acknowledge him for being such a gentleman. 

We bring it in for another group hug and then get a few pictures in before watching another movie together. Majority of the boys voted for The Simpsons Movie while us girls pick The Notebook. I give up as everyone is pleading for their voice to be heard until a loud voice booms.