𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑏𝑜𝑦 𝑜𝑓 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑟𝑟𝑦 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑡 ♥︎ 𝐽𝑖𝑚𝑖𝑛 𝑂𝑆 ♥︎

Despair

I'll be back once something new happens again, Jimin out

I stopped the recording and stay silent for a minute, although I can't see them I can hear Jungkook and Taehyung's calm and slow breathing, they were asleep somewhere in the room

If I could have woken up early I could have helped them with the radio or trying to call the emergency lines on the phone, not only that Jin, Hoseok and Yoongi would not have had to go to that grocery store just for my stupid fever, I've been nothing but a burden and now being the only one that has lost his sight completely i can't really do much to help them, I'm just being useless...

Why...? Why did this happened...? Is this a punishment on humanity...? Was the world really that broken and I failed to see that because I kept living on a dream came true...? Even if it's true I can't just accept it that easily... there's just no way I can accept something like this

Just when I was about to cry I hear the door open and immediately get back in my composure

-Who is it?

-It's me Jimin

-Namjoon, is it only you? They still haven't come back here?

-No, they have not

A beeping sound can be heard on the room, it was the alarm we installed in our phones to know what time it was

It's 1:00 A.M, It's 1:00 A.M

1:00 A.M, that means it's already Wednesday

Namjoon and I remained silent for a moment until he broke the ice again

-Jimin, I'm going to go out and find Jin, Hoseok and Yoongi, please stay here with Jungkook and Taehyung

-But, what about your eyes?

-it's okay, I still can see, so I better hurry up and find them before I completely lose my sight, maybe they're in trouble and need help immediately

-Wait, Namjoon! You can't just go by yourself all alone, it's way too dangerous

-Jimin, there's no time for this, you need to stay here with Jungkook and Taehyung, I want you guys to be safe here until the help arrives... and...if i don't get back with the others by that time, just go without me

And when I heard those words, I felt my blood start to boil as I clenched my fists

-Namjoon, How can you say something like that?!, Do you really think we'll just go away and leave you like you never meant something to us?! I want to protect you just like you're protecting us Namjoon and I want so save the others just as much as you do, don't you dare look down on us that way, I'm tired of you thinking we're like children or something, we won't leave you alone, never...

I could feel how the tears we're coming and hands were holding my face

-Jimin...listen to me, I don't want you guys to come with me not because I think you're not capable of helping me but because I need you here, as long as I know you three will be safe I can keep going, that's the strength you give to me and that's more than enough to help me, you're not being useless or a burden Jimin, so please don't think that way, I love you

Without saying anything else, Namjoon gives me a hug as I cry in his shoulder, he knew how I was feeling just like if he could read my mind, even though I appreciate each and every word he said to me I still can't stop feeling so pathetic and little by my own inability to do something for him or the others

-Namjoon, Jimin, what's going on?

-Jimin, why are you crying? Did something happened?

Suddenly I heard the voices of Jungkook and Taehyung behind me, they most have woken up because of my sobbing and I immediately try to dry my tears with my hands

-Jungkook, Taehyung, I'm going out to find Jin hyung, Yoongi and Hoseok

-We'll go with you

-No, you can't, you need to stay here in case the help arrives, If i don't get back with the others just go

-No way!, we won't leave you

-Guys please just listen to me, I-

*phone starts ringing*

Our discussion came to an end with a sudden call from Namjoon's phone, thinking it might be our friends he picked up immediately

-Hello

-Namjoon, is it you?

-Jin?!

Namjoon immediately put the call into loudspeaker and we all came closer to hear it better

-Jin, Where are you? Why haven't you guys come back? Are you all okay?

-Guys, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, I have failed  all of you, I couldn't do anything, and now Jimin is going to...

-Jin, it's okay, I'm right here, I'm perfectly fine, my fever has gone by now, don't worry about me

-Jimin?! You're...you're actually fine?...thank god, thank god you're ok

Jin's voice broke for a moment, hearing him that way broke my heart

-Jin we're all fine, we have stayed in the hospital room just as you said, now tell us where you are and we'll come for you immediately, are you alone? Where's Yoongi and Hoseok?

-... ...

-Jin?

-Jin hyung?-said Jungkook

-Yoongi and Hoseok...are no longer with us...

After that, the room became dead silent, we stared at each other for a moment and then we started to cry, Jin's sobbing could be heard through the phone and nobody dared to ask him more questions...