My Butler Boyfriend

Chapter 22

"Bakit po hindi ka nakikihalubilo sa kanila? Aren't you happy that you were with dad relatives? Isn't it happy to be with them?" Sunod sunod ko'ng tanong.

She chuckled sweetly. "Your relatives anak. Kamag anak mo 'rin sila. And no. It's fun to be with them. Kapag naging ka close mo sila, madali ka lang makaka-get up sa mga jokes nila. And then they'll invite you to their hangouts. Masaya ako na nakasama ko sila anak. Dahil sila ang pamilya ng daddy mo. I should be happy right?"

To be honest, i'm scared. I'm scared that they wouldn't like me. If i'm going to hangout with them,i'll be out of place. Dahil lahat ng pinaguusapan nila ay kilalang kilala na nila. When me, I have no clue. Sila, kilala na nila ang isa't isa. Kasi kahit na masabi mo na kasama ka sa isang bond, hindi ka tunay na sasaya kung walang closeness. How could you laugh at their jokes when you dont't get it? How could you tease them when you don't even know them? How could you be with them when they don't want to be with you? You can't please everyone to like you. At hindi ka rin naman nila agad magugustuhan kung kakakilala palang nila sayo. Parang first day of school, wala ka'ng kakilala sa kahit na sinong classmate mo, but when the time goes by, you'll just found yourself laughing at their jokes. Having a close friends who understands you. So I guess, it's a process? Pero paano ko masisimulan ang proseso kung ayaw nila ako'ng makikala at maka close sila? That's my perspective in life. Hindi mo pwedeng maging ka close ang isang tao kung hindi mo pa siya kakilala. Kaya si Lianna lang ang tumatagal sa'kin. Dahil hinayaan niya ako'ng makilala at maka close siya. She's the only one who climb up the walls I built up myself to get away from the people who hurt me. Lianna is my bestfriend. Because she's the only one I can stay mad at a short period of time. Pero kung sa mga pinsan ko? Hindi ako sigurado.

Tumango ako at inilibot ang paligid. There's something missing. Para'ng kulang?Tumingin ako kay mommy at nagsalita.

"Where's Mommy Monica?" Tumingin siya sa'kin at nalungkot ang mga mata.

"Do you know? They said incest is a sin. For the law of heaven and then for us. But for me, I disgaree with that idea. They said you can love anyone. Nagagalit ka man sa sarili mo dahil minahal mo ang isang tao, mas nangingibabaw pa'rin ang pagmamahal mo sa kanya. Dahil mahal mo siya. Even you have same the surname and same blood in each other's veins. Love is the most unexplainable thing in the world. You'll lost your self in love. But love also give you a courage to be brave. But loving someone who betrayed you is hell. At diyan pumapasok ang love can cause pain and betrayals that leads you to build a walls for yourself. Para makasigurado ka na hindi kana masasaktan, magiging masama ka sa tao. Galit ka sa lahat. And there's also a thing that you will do to other people just to see them crying. Natutuwa ka na napapaiyak mo sila, dahil ayun ang ginawa nila sayo. Not knowing that you're turning out into a persona you never imagine yourself can be. Love can change you. At si Monica ang isa sa mga biktima. She lost herself in love. The pain and betrayals your Dad did to Monica, caused her to change her ownself. Into a sophisticated, rude but classy CEO of  Yuomik corporation. Watanabe clan hates her, anak. Dahil nagdala siya ng malaking issue sa pamilya niyo noon. And your great grandfather was fuming mad at her. Dumating sa point na pinalayas na siya sa mansion. Hanggang doon lang ang alam ko. But I knew she hates me. Dahil inagaw ko ang atensyon na dati ay sa kanya lang binibigya ng kuya niya. One decades and five consecutive years had passed. Pero ayaw niya pa'rin magpakita. Galit siya. At alam ko'ng habang buhay niya itatanim sa puso niya ang galit at poot ng pinalayas siya mismo ng ama niya 15 years ago. Huwag mo siya'ng babanggitin sa mga pinsan mo anak. Dahil magagalit sila sa'yo." Ngumiti siya at tumayo. Sakto namang lumusot si daddy kung saan kaya inaya na nila ako na umakyat sa stage para ipakilala.

"Good evening to each and everyone, it was nice to see you all here. I just want to say thank you for giving us a chance for you to meet my beautiful daughter. Let us all welcome to Watanabe Clan, 18 years old, Akira Mizuki Watanabe." The people gave me a round of applause. Habang nakatayo ako dito at pinagmamasdan sila, mayroon ako'ng nakikitang masaya para sa nangyari, nagulat na may anak pa palang isa si Daddy, at naiinis. Ngumiti ako ng pilit at mabilis na nagpaalam kay daddy na magc-cr muna.