Alpha's Dirty Secret (SAMPLE ONLY)

Chapter 1

I threw myself on my bed and remembered the day we first met, the day that I was looking forwardto but now it's the day that I cursed to have never happened. 

*Flashback* 

The long drive from my grandmother's house back to my family has finally come to a halt; I got outof the car and took my bags which only consisted of two duffel bags carrying my clothes and otherstuffs into the house that I used to call home. 

"You're back" I heard the lady that has the similar dark hair as mine that I used to call mom. Welltechnically I still do but I don't treat her like one since she doesn't treat me like her daughter. 

I justnodded at her refusing to speak to her, not until that day when she told me right in my face how sheregretted having me. 

"Your room is still the same upstairs," she said and I just politely nodded again, "Abby..." 

"Don't call me that only people I love call me that, mother!" I hissed which I earned a growl from myfather who enters the room with my sister Amelia who immediately run up to me and engulfed meinto a hug, I hug her back and pulled away as I headed to my room. 

As I enter my room I saw that nothing changed, everything was still the same if I can still rememberit. 

I dumped my bags on the floor and walked towards my dressing table filled with picture frames ofme and the rest of my family smiling happily. 

I smiled at the picture of us, when my twin brotherAaron was still smiling brightly together with the rest, and the moment I stared at the picture Iremembered that day, the day when he left, the day when the old me died. 

"Hey, why did you haveto leave me behind? Why did you have to be the hero and saved me? 

If you didn't then you could'vebeen the alpha right now, everybody would've been happy... why did you go instead of me? 

Why didyou leave me behind? I hate you... you promised... we both promised..." I whispered to the photoand felt my tears sliding on my face! 

Great! 

I've been crying nonstop for the past few days because of grandma and now you have tomake me cry as well!I hate you guys! 

You both promised! 

The moment I heard my bedroom door opened I quickly wiped my tears away and tried to hide theweak side of me. 

"Come downstairs after you finish unpacking," I heard my dad said I just nodded still keeping myhead low so he couldn't see me like this. 

I heard him let out a sigh before he closed my door.I looked at the pictures once again before throwing them in the bin; I quickly unpacked and wentdownstairs when the most amazing scent hit my nostrils. 

I quickly searched for it as it got my wolf excited, mate! She happily screamed as my eyes landed ona pair of grey eyes staring back at me. The moment our eyes locked it felt like we were the only people in the room until reality hit me, I looked at his arm which was wrapped around my sister'swaist. 

"Abby!" my sister exclaimed as she realised my presence. 

I just smiled at her disguising the pain both me and my wolf felt when we realised that our mate wasforbidden. 

"Hey, this is my fiancé Cole the alpha from the neighbouring pack and Cole meet my baby sisterAbby" my sister introduced us and the word fiancé broke my heart. 

I should get use to this, I watchas Cole held his hand out to me and I just stare at it."It's Abigail," I said as emotionless as I can, ignoring his hand and walking past them. 

"Abby, don't be so rude come back here!" I heard my father ordered but I just blocked everythingaway. 

"It's alright, you how teenagers nowadays" I heard his deep voice said sending shivers down myspine. 

I went directly to the kitchen searching for something to eat and I settled with an apple and as I wasabout to leave from the back door my mother stopped me. 

"Are you not joining us for lunch, I'm sure you're hungry from that long journey" she said as shegrabbed my arm, I just stare at her hand waiting for her to let go but it looks like she wasn't going tolet go anytime soon so I just forcefully pulled away, "I know you don't want me joining you so whydon't you quit the nice act mother," I said politely before leaving until she decided to insult the onlyperson I cared about. 

"Where are your manners has gone to? Didn't your grandma teach you anything, I knew that lettingyou stay there would make you like—" before I can let her continue I grabbed her neck and pinnedher by the wall, she tried to claw me off but too bad even if she's my mom and even my wolf stillrespect her I as my human part lost all of my respect from her. 

I can see her face going purple from lack of oxygen until I felt sparks went through my skin andrealise during that moment that it was my mate but I can't let anyone know that even my sister, so I buried my wolf deep within somewhere she couldn't come out like I've always done before and Ipushed him off of me. 

I saw my father helped my mother up along with Amelia; they all gave me that look even my mategreat! 

Now I'm the bad guy here! Note the sarcasm but I'm used to it. 

"Get off!" I hissed at my mate and left the house, I run into the woods in my human form fightingagainst my wolf to let her out because if I do then the pain would just double.-Let me out- my wolf begged--No, this is for your own good- I told her and blocked her from my thoughts. 

I don't know where my destination is but one thing for sure is that I'm no longer on my pack'sterritory. 

I decided to head back just in case they mistake me as rouge but I find myself pinnedagainst the tree with a pair of lips I longed for. 

I knew during that moment that it was my mate but this isn't right, not for me nor for my sister. 

So I pushed him off and he growled at me, "What the hell do you think you're doing?" I hissed athim."You will not disrespect me!" he growled completely angry by my lack of respect. 

"Well you should respect others so they would do to you!" I growled back but he just growled backagain. I can feel my wolf itching to come out and meet her mate but not now, not ever. 

"You should know our situation 'alpha'," I said mocking the word alpha but it seems that he didn'tlike that. 

"I... I'm sorry but I can't leave your sister," he said and with that the small part of my heart that I'vebeen trying to piece back just shattered back again into a million pieces. 

"I know, so why don't you just reject me and let us get over this" I said, but looks like he didn't likethat thought because he snaked his arm on my waist protectively growling mine. 

"No... this is unfair for Amelia and me, so make a decision" I told him again as I pushed him awayhating the sparks that I felt."I can't..." 

"Well, I can't hurt my sister as well""Why don't we stay like fuck buddies, this would both benefit us with our sexual frustrations, sinceyou'll be on heat soon as you met your mate I'm the one who can only help you but I can't leaveAmelia... I love her" he said and I just broke again, not like I would show him that... 

"Sure" I said and quickly left, I guess life wouldn't be easy for me again won't it? 

*End of flashback* 

Why the hell did I easily agree to this? I asked myself again but my wolf felt happy so maybe I shouldlet her since I haven't made her happy for the last few years... maybe just for her... I can feel saltytears on my face again, damn it! 

Why am I crying?

 I didn't bother wiping it off because I know it'll only get replaced, another night of me crying myselfto sleep, great just freaking great!