Limerence (Dauntless Series #2)

Chapter 34

Who cares, right? I don't care as long as I can feel his presence. Even if you throw me to wherever it is, I'll never complain. Because I have him with me. And it's all that matters to me.

"Don't worry about it. You're still under anesthesia at that time. I'm sure you didn't mean---"

"Maybe I mean it. Even if I'm not conscious enough to prove to you that it's all true, I'm telling you, I meant every single word that comes out of my mouth."

Nilapag ko ang baso sa mesa at naupo muli sa tabi niya. Kinuha ko ang kaniyang palad at pinagsalikop iyon sa aking kamay. Bumaba ang tingin niya roon pagkatapos ay napangiti.

"I like it when you smile. Mas lalo kang gumagwapo." I said nonchalantly.

He chuckled. Nag-angat ako ng tingin at napangiti na rin. He's so beautiful to look at. I stand by my words when I said then that he looks like a Renaissance painting. He is my definition of art, and he will always be. An art supposed to heal someone who has a scarred heart, and that's what he is.

"You love me because of my looks?"

Napasimangot ako. "Of course not! What kind of question is that?"

He shrugged. He didn't talk, and I know that he wanted me to prove to him that his accusations were wrong. Umayos ako ng pagkakaupo, hindi pa rin binibitawan ang kaniyang kamay. I stared straight to his eyes and he looked at mine with the same intensity. Kung titingnan sa malayo, para kaming nag-aaway dahil sa paraan ng pagtitig namin sa isa't isa, ngunit hindi. Isa lamang kaming magboyfriend na mahal na mahal ang isa't isa.

"I don't know when did it start, but I just know in my heart that I love you, way before I even confessed. Masyado pa akong bata noon para ideklarang may nararamdaman nga ako sa'yo ngunit noong mga panahon na pinaparamdam mo sa akin na para mo ring akong kapatid, hindi ko namalayang unti-unti na pala akong nahuhulog. Pero naisip ko na baka ganoon lang ang mga kinikilos mo dahil nakababatang kapatid lang ang tingin mo sa akin. Kaya lumayo ako. At habang iniiwasan kita, mas lalo lang akong nangungulila."

"Sinubukan kong magmahal ng iba. I thought I succeeded in the pursuit of forgetting you and this young love, but each passing day my love for you grew. I had to break another man's heart because I don't want to hurt him knowing that my whole heart wasn't with him. But then you slipped away either. God knows how much I regretted being a stupid and selfish person. Akala ko hindi na kita makukuha muli. Na pinagbigyan lang ako ng tadhana at kailanman hindi ka na ibabalik sa akin. Kaya laking pasasalamat ko na nandito ka ngayon, kasama ko, at malayang nahahagkan."

Hindi ko alam na bumubuhos na pala ang luha ko. Marceu brought his thumb on my face and wiped my tears away. Napapikit ako. Even his slightest touch could send shivers down my spine.

He pulled me into a tight embrace and kissed the top of my head. I hugged him back, nevermind the stares that we're about to receive from our companions.

"I love you, Saoirse Heena. You are the only one I will ever love. Forever and even in another lifetime."

Nagising ako na iba ang bumungad sa akin. Nasapo ko ang aking ulo nang naisip na nakatulog na naman ako. Akala ko kung saan ako napadpad dahil hindi naman ito ang huling lugar na nakita ko bago ko ipikit ang aking mata. Tumayo ako at pumasok sa banyo.

I changed into a more comfortable clothes. Naririnig ko ang tawanan sa labas kaya nagmamadali akong lumabas. My maxi dress swayed as the cold wind brushed through me. Inayos ko ang buhok ko bago ilagay ang ilang hibla sa likod ng aking tainga. Kumaway sa akin sina Patricia at Daniella na nag-aayos ng mesa sa cottage. Hindi ko alam kung anong oras na ngunit madilim na sa labas at pinapapak ako ng lamok sa ilalim ng mesa. Daniella gave me a repellent.