After the incident between Amanda and I. Hindi ko na siya kinausap. The room became a quiet place. Parang na-abandona. It is the right thing to do. I noticed that I became more energetic and motivated at the same time because I gave too much attention to my team PH.
Hindi ko na muna inisip yung nararamdaman ko, kailangan ako ng Pilipinas to get up and fight!
Maybe I should treat her as my rival only in this competition, not in person unlike what she did to me. Being too harsh is not right for a queen to act.
After two days here we are, doing some rehearsals.
The instructor taught us some dance steps for the opening show for the coronation night.
You know what?
I was placed at the front, bida-bida ang Ibyang ninyo! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
I am really excited for the upcoming preliminaries. I am that 'reasoning' type of girl, wanted to debate and fight for my own beliefs and perspective.
Yes, I was crowned as Miss Universe Philippines because I truly believe that a queen possesses love and passion for one's advocacy and my advocacy is to educate, teach and listen as well.
"Wow Miss Philippines you are doing great!"
The instructor James told me.
I am giving my best in dancing, once in a blue moon experience lang ito so your Ibyang needs to gain more attention namarn.
I chortled a bit, feeling exhausted to this rehearsal.
Complementing others is what the real perception of this competition, a celebration of each women.
Not to gain popularity or anything else, pure love and passion is the real definition.
I breathe heavily and grinned while looking at the crowd, there are some pinoys watching me.
The goosebumps and nervousness just went straight to my heart.
Pakiramdam ko ay nanonood ang buong Pilipinas sa akin and they were all expecting me to do great.
Konting pasabog pa lang ito, hindi pa ito yung final.
There's the feeling of being surreal and true happiness when I first stepped to this enormous stage.
They keep on saying 'Go Rabiya' and it boosts my confidence to the max level.
Kahit anong sakit at struggles pa ang gawin ko, naniniwala ako na kaya ko itong lagpasan and Miss Universe is one of those struggles na malalagpasan ko.
I give my best when it comes to dancing, it is my first day and yes, ganito na agad ang energy ko.
Miss Keith and Ate MJ are there in the crowd, nagsisigawan na nga!
"GO PHILIPPINES, ISANG HAME WAVEEEEE!!!"
Miss Keith anuena?!!!
Muntik na akong matawa ng sobra dahil sa sigaw nila!
Hanggang dito ba naman ay dadalhin nila ang hame-hame wave?! Jusmiyo!
"PAKITAAN MO KAMI NG HALABIRA WALK BILIS! HALA-BIRA-RABIYA!!!"
Ate MJ shouted.
Lalo tuloy naging center of attraction yung dalawa, ang iingay eh! Kulang na lang isama nila ang kulto ni MJ at siguradong mas iingay pa itong stage.
I saw some countries laughing, nabuhay din tuloy ang lahat, medyo inaantok pa kasi, paano nag-midnight talks pa ata silang lahat with their roomies, tapos buong araw kaming nagpra-practice for the opening.
Well, guess what?! Amanda and I didn't talked, what was I supposed to ask? Masyado na kaming kinakain ng tension, maybe we are not really meant for this friendship.
She's right we are just roommates, no need for us to communicate.
I accidentally saw Amanda at the back she's with Miss Australia and USA.
Why is she? Sta-staring?!
Those indulging and sparkling eyes hits so different feels melancholy.
She's staring at me like there's sadness in her eyes.
Her eyes that wants to say 'sorry'
Maybe I was wrong, lagi naman nagkakamali intuition ko kay Amanda eh, she's unpredictable, sure ako gusto na naman niya ako ma-threatened.
Well, I don't need her anymore. That's it.
I need to fight for the crown and that's my only goal!
After the rehearsals Ate MJ and Miss Keith gave me a warm hug.
Nandito kami sa backstage and yung ibang fans rin talking to their delegates.
"Goodness gracious, you are a queen!"
Si Miss Keith naman, over supportive.
She's that one person who always boost up my energy lalo na sa mga practices.
Even though I feel so much pressure she's there to make me feel love and happy. Kaya I need her dito sa competition.
"Grabe langga, over ang energy mo!" Ate MJ said, napatalon pa siya ng konti, gigil yarn?!
"Thank you guys for cheering me up, grabe kinikilig lang talaga ako!" I said.
I can't help but to smile at them.
Sure ako proud din sila sa akin.
"Well, how about the issue between you and Amanda?" Ate MJ is really curious about us.
"Not to make you laugh Rabiya but I feel that there's the chemistry between the two of you!"
My eyes widened when Miss Keith said that, a-ano raw?! Chemistry?!!
Subject ba yon?! Kidding!
Chemistry as friends?!
Or lovers?!
Rabiya! Kung ano-ano na iniisip mo! Gosh!!!
I don't think so, hindi nga niya ako kinakausap.
"Keith! You are totally insane!" Ate MJ insisted.
"You don't know the rival between them?" She added.
Oo, wala na namang alam si Miss Keith, hays!
"Rival? But I find them cute MJ!"
Hindi ko ba alam kung matatawa ako eh, if hindi siguro harsh si Amanda saken, baka may chance pa na magka-crush ako sa kanya. Pero nah! I can take care of myself.
"Gosh Keith! Ito kasi ang chika, Rabiya and Miss Thailand are roommates, tapos grabe si ate mo ghorl kay Rabi! Yun yon! She's a threat for Rab."
"Girls! Go back to your rooms and rest! Good bye!" Instructor James said.
At last!
Yung nanginginig kong mga tuhod ay makakapagpahinga na rin!
Grabe ang energy ko simula kaninang umaga ha!
Ang bilis naman na-gets yung sayaw konting polish na lang perfect na namin.
I bid goodbyes to Ate MJ and Miss Keith, they grinned at me and waved.
God! Gusto ko ng humiga ngayon!
My body searches for a bed, and this is the right time to rest.
"Doing great there Rabiya!" Miss Mexico told me.
I smiled back at her and complimented her also, she danced gracefully.
I saw some girls talking with their roommates, nakakainggit naman, ano kaya pinag-uusapan nila?
Family?
Boys?
Miss Universe?
Yung iba magkaakbay pa papuntang room nila.
While me walking alone and just cheering myself kasi hindi naman ganoon ang roommate ko. I don't have any rights to blame her for all of this, siguro may problema din siya.
"Rabiya can we talk?"
Hala nandito na agad siya?
A-akala ko kasama niya si Miss Singapore?
Biglang bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko ng tinanong niya sa akin ito.
To-totoo ba?
Hindi na siguro siya makatiis!
O bored?!
O baka naman iba na naman ang mood.
I felt the sincerity on her face.
Kung hindi ka lang cute Amanda e! Kidding!
I smiled at her.
"Yes?"
I asked.
She's really cute, yung expression niya na parang baby, yung inosente, ganon! HAHAHAHAHAHA
I sit on my bed and waited for her to speak.
She sat beside me.
Ba-bakit bumibilis ang tibok ng puso ko??
A-ano ba ang meron kay Amanda?!
She's making me feel excited again!
The comfort, nararamdaman ko na naman kahit wala siyang sinasabi, kasi naman yung mga mata niya may sinasabi na e. She speaks through my soul.
"I'm really, gosh I am sorry-ple!"
"It's okay!" I smiled at her, hindi ko na siya pinigilang magsalita.
Those melancholy eyes became the most happiest eyes that I've seen.
Is she blushing?!
Nga-ngayon ko pa lang siya nakitang nakangiti sa akin, napaka-swerte ko naman at sa malapitan ko pa nakita.
Speechless tuloy ako-
A-Amanda kasi e!
Bakit lagi mo na lang din ako napapangiti, simula ng dumating ako dito?
I-I just feel my face blushing and I know that my heart is not normal because of the beat!
Bakit may ganitong factor siya saken, the feeling of love, acceptance and home?
I suddenly stared away from her.
Nakakahiya yung titigan na yun baka kainin na ako eh!
I just heard her chuckled.
I didn't noticed that her hands touches my face and wants me just to focus on her.
Her hands, those plumpy hands! Sobrang kinis grabe!
Para akong nakuryente sa pagdait ng mga kamay niya sa mukha ko.
Ju-jusko! Hindi na ako makahinga ng maayos!
Wag kang ngingiti Rabiya!!
Wag ngayon!
Hindi pwede 'to!
"Look at me babe." Her soft voice whispers.
Ba-babe?!
Huh?!
Parang gusto ko ng magtatatalon sa sobrang kilig!
Jusmiyo! Bakit kinikilig ako?!
Hindi ako makahinga!
Hoy!! Send help!
Kinikilig ako!!!
Normal pa ba 'to?!
Bakit si Amanda pa ang nagpapakilig saken?!!!!!!
HOY!!!!!
I AM HYPNOTIZED WHEN SHE STARED AT ME AGAIN!!!
Syempre! Paano ako iiwas sa kanya? Nahihirapan na ako gumalaw ngayon!
Yung mga mata, shet!
Kung anong i-utos niya pakiramdam ko mapapasunod na niya agad ako.
Bakit ba-babe?!
Sa-saan galing yun?!
Konting lapit na lang ni Amanda mahahalikan na niya ako.
Ang bilis naman!!!
Her breath smells like candy, grabe, alaga talaga ngipin niya charrr!
"Wa-why?! Babe?! Huh?!"
Mental blocked.
Hindi na ako makagalaw ng maayos, nagdidiwang ang puso ko hoy!!
Halikan mo na ako bilis! Charaught!
Ready na ako sayo!
"I will watch you babe, okay? You're doing great."
GOODNESS!!
AMANDA OBDAM!!!
ANONG NASA UTAK MO?!!!!
SEND HELP!
BAKA DI KO NA KAYANIN YUNG TITIGAN NAMIN NEXT TIME!!
Ba-babe?!
So ibigsabihin may something?
Gosh no!!
I'm done, tatamaan na ata ako sa kanya.