As I stormed away, focussing on where I placed my feet and where I was head to, I filled with more and more rage. Why did he tell them?! I wasn't ready for the others to know, it's why I haven't informed any of them yet. This wasn't an invitation for him to do it for me either. As I walked in an almost marching fashion as a result of my heavy footsteps, that main question, "why?", escaped my mouth in a hushed tone.
Without noticing I had walked into my workroom my Studio and closed the door silently and collapsed against it, even if I was furious with him couldn't higher against the sadness and disappointment that came after I didn't want to know what he'd do next even when my mind wondered if it was okay to leave and not come back again I would be too weak to do it, would that been why I was in that black space while I was asleep was it telling I shouldn't have told anyone, having little space shouldn't be a curse but sometimes it was.
Closing my eyes still sitting on the ground against the door, I didn't want to work, get up, or be here in the studio in the first place yet here I was on the ground I wanted to be myself freely without being afraid of the members judging me even if it was possible now I wasn't happy with it, sitting in there the rest of the night wasn't a good idea but it being the only way to Avoid THE8 so that's what I was about to do locking the door even though I knew everyone had somehow gotten Spare kay of the room.
I put out light even to I was afraid of the dark I didn't mind it now, sitting down in front of my desk booting up the computer to work so I had something on my hands ignoring the date and the clock in the right corner of the screen I worked away the night, Days, weeks? I can't tell if I might lost myself in the workflow or was it just pure anger that fueled me to work and ignore my needs when the day came I looked in the right corner of the screen and a long time had passed.
When I decided to take a break and stand up I felt nauseous like u could puke but nothing would come out not alone that but my head was pounding it was like I just received a Piano on my head the fact was I hadn't taken proper care of myself and those were the effects: the room began to spin around me first slowly but the speed picked up quite fast until I fell.
I couldn't hear anything but silence, what had I done to myself ending up like this something stupid, Mindless obviously; I don't know how long I laid unconscious on the floor, however, my hearing came back and I heard the door being unlocked and then a yell that belonged to three different members as soon as they came so came a rush of voices and worry.
An amount of time went by sluggish for the outside world while for me the time had flown by fast, opening my eyes noticing blurry figures around and the outline of a white person appeared, looking up to the ceiling as my head was pounding my eyes meeting the light which was harsh on my eyes.
" what have I done" I heard a voice outside the door I was confused at first and then the memory of my fainting came back, it was xu talking to someone outside of my room now I felt bad, they all must have been worried about me, what have I done ignore then.
"Minghao, he'll be okay Don't worry" I heard Jeonghan tell I had closed my eyes again before they walked in, after a bit, I felt someone tenderly running his finger on my cheek I felt bad for what I had done after a bit I open my eyes again being greeted by Jeonghan who sat next to me.
The elder was reading a book while the Younger being Minghoa was playing on his phone.
"Hanie" I mumbled, making him look up at me with a soft look on his face and rubbing my bangs out of my face, he sat down on the bed. I carefully tried to sit down on his lap, which made him smile, rubbing my back.
"Hey there baby" I blushed slightly as Jeonghan said that and held me close to him, I relaxed as I held onto him cuddling I felt a pair of other eyes stare at me as well which I still tried to avoid.
"Cupcake, why didn't you come back home sooner, you had been in your studio for a week" suddenly S.coups walked in and looked at me with a stern look on his face I hide in Jeonhlghan's chest and held onto bim tighter.
"Sowy" I mumbled quietly as I held on to the second elder not wanting him to go I slightly had started crying I don't know why.
"Don't cry Love, were not Angry just worried" I heard Jeonghan calmly say as he started rocking me after a bit, he laid himself down on the bed with me on top of him Yawning I closed my eyes until I felt something being pushed in-between my lips I wanted to touch it but Jeonghan quickly took my hand and held it so I couldn't take the thing in my mouth which was oddly relaxing to me.
My eyes again slowly closed this time it was others, this time I was in the arms of my MaMa I felt safe as I slowly enter the land of dreams until I was woken by a door flying opened hardly and a Yell which wasn't pleased.
"Woozi, how dare you not eat or drink" Jun Yelled in a mix of anger and worry, I didn't answer as I was too terrified slightly shaking in Jeonghan's chest while tears were leaking out of my eyes when Jun noticed he fastly took me in his arms and held me, I tried to push him away I didn't wanna be with.
"Hey, don't pushy hung away woozi. I'm sorry for yelling so loud, baby we were worried about u A lot?" He said l, I barely understood what he said thanks to the fact Jeonghan had let me slip in little space and Jun pushed in a deeper one.
I only was confused and wanted to cry more wanting to be in Jeonghan's arms cuddling him.
"Jun, he just woke up give him some space", S.coups said and glanced at Jun, with a deep sight jun let me down on the bed, finely I crawled to jun and laid down again holding onto him I calmed down as he rubbed my back.
"It's an okay little one, your safe," he said and held me closer to himself softly rocking as I fell asleep slowly.