[UNEDITED]
The last time I saw you, you waved at me and said, "See you in a while Eya.."
Emaya sat in front of his grave, "It's been a while....
..Kaz." Her voice broke.
I remember that one time, when we sat on the edge of that cliff you took me to. You told me that the view of the stars from there made you feel like you had the universe in your arms. You said that it felt like.... that galaxy was ours.
And just as the galaxy seems endless,I thought our love would've lasted for an eternity too.
"Who would've thought...that there would come a time when I'd talk to you like this, without hearing anything back from you." She spoke softly.
Then again, was I being selfish? For holding you back when you wanted to let go? Was I being fair for not letting you leave the one place that has caused you so much pain?
"Are you better now baby? It doesn't hurt anymore does it?" She asked as she took the dry leaves that had fallen on top of his grave and slowly threw them on the ground.
Life is still the same. The way it has been from when you left. I'm always stuck in my head. I can't help but blame myself sometimes you know? Like, what would've changed if your calls did reach me? What would've happened if I could've found you on time? What would have been the outcome if they treated you better...?
Emaya was exhausted.
She was exhausted from crying so much. She was exhausted from the pain that her heart was going through. She just wanted everything to stop. She couldn't take it. It hurt. It hurt so much.
"Where is my son!?" Yelled a voice from behind her.
Emaya turned around to see Kaz's excuse of a mother.
Mrs. Grey looked around , saw Emaya and grew a pissed off look.
"You! It was you wasn't it!? What did you do to our son!?" She screamed at her.
Mr. Grey was just standing behind his wife talking on the phone.
And Emaya couldn't control herself anymore.
"YOU NEVER CARED! YOU NEVER FUCKING CARED! WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU HERE NOW!?" She yelled back.
This seemed to anger Mr. Grey, because he ended the call and looked at Emaya in disapproval.
"He was our son." He announced.
"Was he? WAS HE!? HE FELT NEGLECTED!" Emaya answered.
"How would you know? We are his parents. Don't tell us what's right and wrong , young lady! We KNOW our son better than you do!" Mrs. Grey retorted back. She honestly seemed smug.
Emaya chuckled bitterly.
"Yeah? Do you really?"
She looked at them dead in the eye.
"WHERE THE FUCK WERE YOU THEN!? All those times! All those fucking times that he attempted to just end it all!? You weren't there. I WAS. I was always there damn it! The moment, the one moment I wasn't..I lost him.."
Emaya broke down and fell on her knees.
Kaz's 'parents' didn't even look ashamed.
I hope you found your peace, my love. I hope that you're finally happy. I hope that you're genuinely having fun, wherever you are now. I hope to see you again someday and when I do, I hope you greet me with open arms.
My questions won't be answered anytime soon, but that's okay. As long as you're happy, I'll be okay.
Your Lover,
Emaya June.
Emaya stood up from her spot in front of his grave and looked up at the sky filled with stars.
"We were pretty cliché..." She smiled, as a soft breeze blew, rustling the dry leaves that fell.
"Our galaxy huh?" She mumbled as she walked away.
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RAIDYN'S P.O.V
I can't believe it. It has been a week already.
And yet....
"AYE HEY HEY CANADIAN RAMENN~ wait for me! The soup to your noodles."
....I can't seem to get rid of this roach named Ronan fucking West.
"Sheesh. Give the poor boy a break Captain Hook!" Nyx shouted from the other side of the gym.
"The bandana is to keep my fucking hair off of my face asshole!" Ronan shouted back.
"What hair? The one you got on your head that looks like it got straightened with an iron!?" Nyx retorted while laughing.
"Like you have room to talk about hair. Like, have you looked at yourself in the mirror!? Yours looks like it has been styled by a child that goes to kindergarten!" Ronan yelled.
Why am I friends with these knuckleheads again?
No really. One is practicing his dunks and another one is practicing his sets. Two different sports, both flying monkeys on the different sides of the gym and yet. I need a refund. I'm not even paid for dealing with these two.
"I swear if you two don't shut the fuck up and focus, you won't have any hair left to even talk about." I deadpanned.
"Yes boss!"
"Will not happen again daddy."
"Ronan."
"Sorry."
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I opened the door to the school's terrace to see Emaya already sitting on the floor.
"Hey Em." I greeted.
"Hi Skye." She looked up from her book to me.
I sat down beside her.
"You and Ronan are finally done gazing into each other's souls?" She asked.
"For the last time the dumbass tripped and almost fell on top of me okay!? It's not my fault I have fast reflexes and ended up holding him like that." I face palmed, embarrassment growing.
"Oh look at you getting flustered." She commented.
I groaned.
"Sorry sorry." She gave a small smile and I stared.
"What?" She raised an eyebrow.
"You...smiled.." I grinned.
"Shut up Skye." She looked away. I chuckled.
Emaya and I became quite close. Or so it seemed that way to me. She responds to me a lot more now and rarely starts a conversation, but that's fine.
Though..she did tell me about the tragedy that happened 4 months ago. I want to help her.. I really do.
Well shit. I'm getting attached.
"Hey Em..." I called.
"Hm?" She hummed in response.
"Are you okay? Like okay okay?" I asked.
She looked at me. "You want me to be honest?"
"Yes..please." I replied.
"I'm not okay. I'm far from okay. I don't even feel like living anymore... I don't know why I'm even here in the first place. I'm losing myself you know? Everywhere I go...everywhere I turn to, leads me back to Kaz. We've made so many good memories that it hurts now that he's gone. I want to let him go...to find peace with myself, but everytime I try to do that...I can't. I tried pushing the people who matter to me away so that it wouldn't hurt them when I'm gone. I want to disappear... I want to sleep and just never wake up again Raidyn.. it's impossible for me to forget him.. I can't..."
Her hands started shaking and I quickly held them.
"Hey, it's okay.. it's okay Em. Breathe... Look, it's okay to take your time. You're hurting after all. You've got memories with him? Cherish them, but you can always make new ones..okay? There are people who care so much about you, who feel the pain you feel too, maybe not as much, but they understand okay?" I said honestly.
"I get nightmares...of..of..that day.
When the world has it's eyes on me.. who do I look at then?" She asked softly.
"7.9 billion people in this world, what would a mere crowd do? You know what? When you feel like the world's against you, look into my eyes, I'll only care about you. That's all that matters right?"
Emaya squeeze my hands back. And that was enough for me.
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(A/N: Hie smellies!!! 10 Chapters completed! Lesss goooo! Get me a ship name for these cuties!!! I'll see you next time my beautiful hoomans! I love youuu!!!)
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