You didn't think much of it at first, but as you walked next to the red-haired beauty, you couldn't help but get more nervous with each step. It had been so long since you were asked to dinner with other people and you couldn't help but worry about messing up. It was never a pleasant experience when you were a child, your parents would always show you off and you always had to be on your best behaviour. You think back to so many nights you would get screamed at or hit when you didn't act the way they wanted you to. It could have been as simple as dropping a spoon, eating too loud, or heaven forbid you coughed while they were talking. It was ingrained into you from an early age, perfect dinner manners and it was a hard thing to unlearn, even while eating by yourself in the mess hall at Shield you had a hard time relaxing with other eyes on you.
You used to be always so polite and serious, always acting like a proper lady, after all, it was the way you were raised to act. You remembered your debutante ball, a tad old-fashioned for the time but even now so many years later, it still scared you a bit whenever you thought about it. You hadn't changed much since then, but it made sense, after getting your powers you stopped ageing. Even though you still looked and acted like you were 18 or 19, you weren't and hadn't been for a long time.
You knew you still didn't have to act that way, you were free to talk while eating, slouch in your chair, or have a second helping if you wanted to but when others were around you were always in default mode, following every stupid rule. You couldn't even dress down if you knew you would be spending time with others, and tonight was no exception. You found yourself being able to act more relaxed and more yourself around Loki but it was different with him, he was different. Thinking about him and the time you've spent together only made your heart sink a little, he left without a word. I mean he kissed you and that was amazing but he left so suddenly, you began to wonder if he actually liked you or if you were just something to occupy his time.
Before you went in you once again asked Natasha if you looked alright, still not sure if you were dressed correctly for a "casual dinner" with other adult people. You had on a black fitted and slightly cropped halter-neck blouse with no sleeves and a peekaboo back, a black high-waisted pinstriped pencil skirt with black tights and a pair of black leather vintage-style Mary Jane heels. You also had on a vintage black leather jacket, it looked like the one Sandy Olsson wore in Grease, you put it on hoping it would make your outfit look more easygoing and relaxed. As for accessories you weren't wearing much, a simple and long witch-inspired necklace, made up of multiple chains with little Wiccan Symbol charms. You also had on a pair of studded crescent moon earrings and a re-creation of "the One Ring" from Lord of the Rings. You had your hair in the same long dutch braid, only taking a minute to make sure it didn't get all messed up from your make-out session with Loki.
Natasha rolled her eyes at you, telling you that again, you looked fine, you would probably be the best-dressed person there but she didn't think you were overdressed, at least not by much. You nodded your head and followed her into the meeting room they had set up for dinner. Thor was drinking beer, it probably went well with the Chinese food they ordered and you briefly wondered how they were able to get Chinese while aboard a flying aircraft carrier. You grabbed a sugar-free Fresca and awkwardly stood in one of the corners noticing everyone was periodically staring over at you. It wouldn't surprise you if Captain Rogers told them about Dutch Sanderson, nor would it really bother you, he knew the real story, the whole story so at least they wouldn't be getting some half-baked version the others so commonly spread.
As you stood there awkwardly looking around or down at your shoes, you were completely unaware that the weird male agent from earlier was watching you from afar. He was talking to his buddy about your medication, how the new stuff he delivered was a lot stronger than your old meds. How you would be out all night long and wouldn't remember a thing, he smiled at the thought. He looked forward to stopping by your room later with his friend, they were going to have a lot of fun with you.
You ended up talking to Thor for a while, he came over to offer you a beer, while commenting about how he would always find Loki off in a corner at parties too, the same as you. "Maybe that's why he likes you because you're a little like him," Thor said and you smiled nodding your head, before saying you didn't really like parties, you've never had fun while attending them when you were younger. He asked you about it and trying to be more open and honest in an attempt to make friends you told him the truth; your parents would always show you off like you were a trophy, using you to make themselves look better, even though they never did a thing to raise you, that was the servant's job. They didn't show you how to play the piano or read, no one showed you how to make friends or allowed you to try and make friends with anyone. "Sorry, I'm awkward, I don't usually talk to people about this stuff, or anything really," you admit, knowing that what you said would probably bring down the mood.
You always found yourself in weird extremes when you talked to people; you would either be uptight and stoic, make jokes to hide your pain, the "classic" teenage rebel, happy airhead, or painfully awkward as you told someone too much, way too much. It was different with Loki though, it was weird how much you could be yourself around him, you hadn't known him long but you felt at peace by his side. You tried to recapture that calm feeling while talking to Thor, he didn't really seem to care about how awkward or different you were from other humans, which you liked.
You asked Thor more about Loki, seeing as you wanted to get to know him better and Thor happily told you many stories, the kind that wouldn't be written down in a magical tome. He made you laugh so hard, so much so you were soon crying from giggling, you found the Asgardian quite amusing. You wiped your eyes as you told Thor while still laughing, "no more, I can't, I can't take it anymore, stop, oh please, my stomach hurts,". You tried to calm down, breathing heavy, still recovering from laughing until your sides nearly burst, how could one guy be so funny?
You continue to ask Thor about Loki, throwing in a question about him or something else Asgardian-related so it didn't seem too weird, but the God of Thunder still caught on. He asked why you were so curious about his brother and you felt your face heating up but you did your best to answer the question without making it obvious how much you fancied Loki. "He's interesting, I've never met anyone like him before... I thought it would be cool to be his friend," you say rather proud of yourself, you were able to speak in a calm and relaxed tone. Thor seemed fairly surprised, you knew about all of the bad things he's done and yet you still wanted to be Loki's friend.
"You do know he plans to conquer Midgard, correct?" Thor asks, and you nod your head, completely aware of Loki's plans. "I'm not so sure about it though... it doesn't seem like he actually wants to rule this world, he wants something else... but I don't know what it is yet," you say before realizing you might have said too much. You look up at Thor, whose eyes were wide, he was taken aback by your words, you really seemed to care about him and wanted to figure Loki out. "He's killed 80 people," Natasha said, overhearing your conversation, and her sudden interjection grabbed the attention of the others. You weren't really sure what to say, feeling a bit sheepish suddenly but you managed to whisper "is that any more than anyone else in this room,". "That's different kid," Tony says, but you ask him quietly, "really, how many people have you killed with all the weapons you've made?" their eyes go wide at what you were saying and Natasha promptly tells you that's going too far. "Most of you are trying to make up for your past mistakes, you saw the errors of your ways and now you're better, he's hurting, I just want to help him, so he can choose a new path like the rest of you," you say still in a low voice but you sound a bit more emotional now.
The others didn't really know what to say; Bruce and Natasha could understand where you were coming from, seeing as they did bad things, most of it out of their control. Thor and Steve thought you had good intentions but that seeing as you were "young" you were being naive, thinking you could change him. Tony, however, didn't like you bringing up his past mistakes and he decided to bring up yours in his anger. "This coming from the girl who blew up a psychiatric hospital killing over 5000 people," Tony said and the room went silent, you could hear a pin drop. Apparently, Shield did know about your other incident and Tony found out about it while going through all of Shield's files.
The incident plays through your mind; you were arrested, you freaked out in public after someone touched you while at a store, you caused a "disturbance" and ended up getting sent to a mental hospital. Someone there recognized you, or at least who your family was, apparently your family fucked up his parents' life and planned to take revenge by killing you. He snuck into your room one night, planning to stab you and seeing as you had no control over your powers, just suppressing them up until this point, the stress it put you through ended up causing a massive outburst destroying the hospital, killing every doctor, every patient, every guard, and every other employee in the building. You sat there in the rubble for days in shock at what you had done, you even tried to kill yourself so you couldn't hurt anyone else but it didn't work.
They could see the horrified expression on your face, as you started to tear up, you whispered "it was an accident," as you began to break down completely. "That doesn't change the fact that..." Tony said but you cut him off screaming, "I know!" as your eyes and hair glow for a moment, as the light in the room flicker and some of the less heavy objects in the room start to move. "I live every day with what I've done, I'm trying to do better, I'm trying to be better and it doesn't help when everyone around me only sees a monster... I know I'm a monster, but I thought you guys were different, I thought you guys could see past it, see that I could be more, but I guess I was wrong," you yelled, but with each word spoken you got quieter, you began to sink back into the dark, slowly letting your overwhelming guilt consume you.
You managed to regain your composure in spite of everything, you turned to Natasha, thanking her for the invite before politely excusing yourself, seeing as you were tired. You quickly left while trying to keep it together, at least until you were back in your room where you could bawl all you wanted without interruption or judgement. Several of the Avengers wanted to go after you but they decided it would be best to leave you alone for now. Natasha ended up hitting Tony upside the head, he screwed up their plan to try and convince you to join the team to help out, seeing as with your magic, you could be a great addition.
You stepped into your room, closing the door you slid down against it, feeling like your heart was breaking apart. You didn't even have enough energy to cry anymore, feeling completely numb and empty sitting alone on the floor. You soon got up and headed over to your bathroom, having a quick shower, brushing your teeth, and taking your medication. You came out completely naked, just finishing up drying yourself off with your towel before tossing it into the laundry hamper in your bathroom, walking over to your closet to pick out some pyjamas and underwear.
You ended up putting on some of your more risque pieces, seeing as dressing this way would usually make you feel better. You had put on a black gothic bra and panty set, it had flower lace and was mostly sheer with strap detailing on the sides of the panties and along your neckline as it connected to a choker collar necklace. It had the option of attaching matching stockings but you decided to leave them off tonight, opting instead to put on your 1930s style silk slip, it was a light blush-pink, lacy, and see-through. They wouldn't keep you that warm but they made you feel feisty, sensual and rebellious, everything you weren't allowed to be before.
You came out of the closet noticing the clothing you gave to Loki was folded neatly at the end of your bed. You stared at it for a moment, contemplating sniffing them, wondering why that idea popped into your head before you marched them over to your bathroom to put them in the laundry. You held them in your hands for a moment, you didn't want to throw them in the basket just yet, you quickly snift them and tossed them away, covering your face with your hands, muffling your scream as you felt like a pervert. You then ran out of the bathroom, throwing yourself face-first onto your bed, letting the pillow that rested beneath you stifle another scream, as you still felt really dirty from what you had just done.
You then sat up, adjusting your position and getting under the covers when you noticed something else, Loki didn't take your book set of Sherlock Holmes with him when he left. You noticed that the Yggdrasil Tome was also sitting on your bed and you were a bit confused, certain he had borrowed it, but there it was. You quickly get back up to put your Tome away, floating it over as you picked up your Sherlock Holmes books and placed them at the end of the bed just in case Loki stopped by while you were sleeping. You then laid back down, using a bit more of your magic to start up your sleeping music while finding a comfortable position to rest in, unaware of the danger lurking nearby.
Loki was laying on his bed in his cell still unable to get to sleep, as he was still thinking about you. The taste of your lips, the feel of your sweet little body pressed up against his, the way you whispered his name or your hands wrapped in his hair as you pulled him closer, was driving him completely mad. He sat up thinking what he could do to occupy his time, he could spy on the Avengers, or reread that book you brought him, realizing that when he left your room he had forgotten to take the other Sherlock Holmes books. He could pop back into grab them but decided against it, not really knowing what he do if he was with you again. The thought of your smile, your kind eyes, your sweet scent of lavender, and hearing that Midgardian song you sang with a voice of an angel, how was he supposed to get anything done with you around?
He decided to spy on the Avengers, you were no longer with them, so no one should be able to sense his presence. They were talking about you though, and Loki was surprised by what they were saying, as they discussed what you were talking about with Thor. You believed that Loki didn't want to take over Midgard, that he really wanted something else, but you weren't sure what it was and neither were they. You believe that if all the other Avengers got a second chance to change their future he deserved a chance too. They thought you were too naive, not everyone could change but they understood where your heart was at, now knowing a little more about your past, they knew why you felt that way and why you were trying so hard.
Loki had heard enough and was about to leave when Thor told Stark he should go to you and apologize for making you cry. This pissed Loki off, Stark made you cry? How dare he make you cry? No one made his Mortal cry, not if he had anything to say about it. He then realized what he was saying, becoming frustrated at how you already had so much sway over him, even though he hadn't known you for that long. Loki let out a groan, he would have to deal with Stark later, as he was going to check on you first.
He looked into your room with his mind, making sure you were still awake, you were supposed to be sleeping after all and he didn't want to disturb you. The lights were off and he realized you were indeed asleep, he could, however, still pop in to grab your books. He decided he could just grab them in the morning and spend time with you before you had to leave to do your training and the like when he saw something that made his blood boil. There were two men in your room, he recognized one of them as the agent from before who dropped off your medication and Loki quickly teleported into your room, barely remembering to cast an illusion before leaving his cell.
Loki stood off in the darkness listening to the two men discuss what they were going to do with you. He heard the one mention how great it was going to be, having you on this new medication and the other agreed. They had some stuff to tie you down so that you wouldn't move and they could keep you in a position they wanted, both of them now approaching the bed. The men then hear something and turn around and their eyes go wide to see what stepped out among the dim lights happened to be the God of Mischief. Loki didn't waste any time, promptly lunging forward at them and quickly taking them out, disposing of them by teleporting them away to who knows where.
He then turned back to you, noticing the noise those pigs made woke you up but as Loki stepped closer he realized there was something wrong with your eyes. He swiftly made his way onto your bed, grabbing you and still wrapped in your blanket he kept you close, holding your face in his hand making you look up at him. You seemed half asleep while gazing up at Loki, you called his name all confused before asking what was wrong as you tried to fully wake up. You found yourself stuck in some weird half-asleep mode, unable to think clearly and you asked Loki if he knew what was happening.
You tried to focus harder and started to glow in response, your magic slowly burnt through your medication and within about a minute it completely wore off. Your eyes go back to normal, and you stare back up at Loki wondering why he was here, but before you could ask again what was wrong he pulled you into a tight hug. If he hadn't checked on you, Loki didn't even want to think about what those disgusting creatures might have done. You belonged to him, you were his and his alone, Loki wasn't planning on letting anyone else have you, not now or ever.
Your eyes went wide and despite being completely awake now you still had no idea what was going on, Loki just pulled you closer, holding you securely in his arms like he wasn't planning on letting go. Seeing as you weren't really sure what else to do you just went along with it, enjoying the God of Mischief holding you so close, like you were the most precious thing in the world. He made you feel special, he made you feel wanted, no one else had ever held you like this before and you didn't want him to stop. Even though you were curled up tight in a blanket you still manage to free your arms enough to wrap them around Loki, letting them rest on his shoulder blades and around the back of his head.
"Loki," you called to him, trying to recapture his attention but he seemed to be lost in thought, and you weren't exactly sure what to do. You managed to pull back to look at him, placing one of your hands on his face and with the other, remembering what you were wearing you held your blanket tight as you asked the god what was wrong. Loki looked up at you but he still didn't respond and you could tell by his expression it probably wasn't good, seeing as it appeared to be something that weighed heavily on his mind. You let out a sigh in defeat, before saying "we don't have to talk about it if you don't want to, but I have to insist you tell me what I can do to make you feel better,". He made eye contact with you again and continuing, you said, "I know something's wrong, tell me what I can do for you that would help,". You could easily discern he was troubled by something, and even if he didn't want to talk about it you didn't want him to be upset, so if you could assist in any way, you would.
Loki told you he overheard some agents talk about your new medication, how it was a lot stronger than your old stuff, how they planned to take advantage of that fact. You didn't understand at first, what were they going to do while you were asleep but then it clicks and you covered your mouth in shock. He didn't tell you that they were close to succeeding with their plan, deciding it would be best to keep you in the dark on the fact that they were just in your room a few minutes ago.
You remained silent for a few moments, staring down at your lap while processing everything Loki had just told you. You then looked back up, thanking Loki for the warning, giving him a little kiss on the cheek before you got up from the bed and shuffled over to your bathroom, with your blanket in tow. You quickly pull out your new medication, it was unopened, seeing as you missed a day a few weeks back when you pulled an all-nighter, so you were planning to start the new stuff tomorrow. You looked at the dosage, comparing it to your old meds and you were surprised you didn't realize it was nearly three times as strong as the old stuff. You quickly opened the bottle, using a bit of your magic to disintegrate all the pills into dust before dumping the powder down the sink, rinsing them away, not giving it another thought. You then turned back around, a bit surprised to see Loki standing right behind you, but you smiled at him, telling him you disposed of the pills before thanking him again for saving you.
"Don't think I'm your valiant hero darling, I didn't do it because it was the right thing to do, I did it simply because no one else is allowed to touch you," Loki expressed bluntly, a predatory look in his eyes as he inched closer towards you. "What do you me..." you tried to ask Loki what he meant but he cut you off, pinning you against the wall between your sink and the shower and in your shock, you went completely silent. You gripped your blanket tighter and you turned your head to look away as he leaned forward, closing your eyes letting out a moan as you felt his lips brush up against your ear. "Oh no my dear, I think you know exactly what I mean," he whispered directly into your ear, as you felt your body tense up from the sensation of his hot breath on your neck.
You turn back to look at him all flustered, trying to say something but you found that you were unable to speak, merely stutter, incapable of articulating a single word, let alone a full sentence. Loki smirked, letting out a pleasant breath at your cute embarrassed expression, your wide eyes and red cheeks were definitely something he enjoyed seeing. He leaned back in and your eyes instantly shot down, was this really happening? Was Loki really about to do what you hoped he was going to do?
Loki grabbed you, gently gripping your jaw to make you look up at him, giving you a passionate kiss before he seized you, yanking you forward towards him. You let out a sharp gasp from the sudden jolt, still keeping your blanket tightly around you, finding yourself staring up at the god, as he held you firmly in place by the small of your back. "You're mine," he declared, kissing you again before picking you up, carrying you back over to the bed. Loki's plans had been delayed, a small setback, but he didn't mind as he knew exactly how he was going to spend his time.
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