As the rain fell harder and harder pounding on my empty soul my heart sunk lower. I couldn't just give up on him. I wondered about if he thought of me. It had been two weeks and prom was in two days We had both been nominated for prom queen and king. I didn't care if I didn't have him in my life I was no queen if my king was not there to fight for me.
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JOHNNY POV
"Bro I think you're taking this way too far. She didn't mean it and she loves you!" My brother had been on my back about our separation for two weeks. It was killing me inside, but something there was something i just couldn't seem to let go of.
"Shut up! Shut up! Shut up!" If my hands had not been dug so deep in my hair I'm sure I would have socked him. It wasn't worth fighting over, but she was worth fighting for. "I know."
Prom was in two days and I silently listened to the rain. It wasn't right to sit there and have made her suffer and cry herself to sleep every night. "Bro, I'm telling you this from an objective standpoint. I know-we all know that you both are so into each other that its killing you to separate. So just go to her and tell her how you really feel. Tell her either you love her or you don't. Simple." His hand slapped my back and he left.
I had felt the claminess of my hands when I dialed that familiar voice. It had been that voice that had rescued me those years ago. She had saved me from myself.
Hello?
Milly. I-uhhh hi.
hi. uhhhh...
The reciever was silent, it wasn't fair. I had practiced what I had wanted to say but the words were stuck in my throat and I couldn't tell her how I felt. I just you know was calling to see if you know you're ready for prom?
Oh? yes I guesso.
Oh thats good. So...?
I have to go. I'm sorry I'll see you later or at prom I guess. bye. The tears had been choking her words, the three words I needed to hear.
The phone clicked. "I love you." I was so immature that it was stupid. I had no experience with girls like my brothers, they all knew the rulesof the game. I had been left out, I wanted to be the one to take the girl by storm and make everything happen as life went along.
I had been making it happen alright. I watched the rain fall and listened to her silent tears hit the desk she laid her head at. I could see the ocean blue of her tears flood her forest green eyes, her dark red hair smooshed agains her puffy round cheeks. It was my fault she hadn't been herself, she'd let everthing go because I had been so selfish.
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The winds beat with the rain slammed against the window. The soothing beat of rain against my broken heart talked me into calling her. I had waited twelve years to ask her out, to kiss her, and one day ask her to be my bride. None of it would matter if I didn't get over that kiss. "Simple" that is what he told me, he told me it wouldn't be hard. If it was so simple then I must have been sick because each time I picked up the phone my breathing go shallow and I felt flushed.
I wanted to talk to her.
Hello
Hiya
You sound like you have a cold or something? Are you okay?
Yes, don't worry abou it.
So did you get my messages?
Yes all seventeen of them.
Oh well you know... you weren't picking up the phone and I just you know-
Well no I actually don't...
Milly--
Yes Johnny?
I--I was just wandering if you know you weren't too busy today if you'd like to meet me?
Uhhh okay sounds like a plan.
Really you'd go with me?
Yes?
Okay so does noonish sound okay?
Sure see ya then.
Her voice was hollow and empty, I couldn't tell if she even wanted to be with me. She was such a stubborn and hard headed, clumsy, crude, and most wonderful girl I have ever known. She was the reason I wanted to fight Fernando, he wanted her but I couldn't-wouldn't let him have her. I had a date with her--I had a date with her. I had seven hours to think of what ot say.
"BZZ BZZ" "BZZ BZZ"
Yo
Hey casenova
what the hell do you want?
I want to know why you are making Milly cry!
That is not your business.
I beg to differ, I believe I've the one whose dated her for more than four months
Shut up!
So what happened?
If I tell you you have to tell me something.
Oh you want to know our story?
Yea.
Fine-spill.
I explained it to him the seriousness of it. He called me an idiot and said that if I didn't fix it he'd kill me. He had never been more serious. To love someone like that, to love someone who you owed your life to. I didn't understand I never would. She wasn't just an object to him but someone who'd protect him.
My last chance--it was win or fail situation. "Wish me luck!"
I heard all of my family yell out from separate parts of the house "LUCK!!!" Thanks I'd sure need it.
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MILLY POV:)
"Milly" he had petted my hair like he used to do-when I was sure he could never hate me.
Johnny had been so quiet, it startled me when he said something. We had been sitting in his living room for two hours before he said anything. I looked up at him and whimpered, I wasn't sure if it was an answer but he spoke again. "Milly it wasn't fair for me to just go off on you like that. And it wasn't right that I didn't talk to you like I promised I would. I had been so caught up in being jealous of Fernando I forgot about you."
"I'm sorry." His fingers ran kindly through my freshly washed hair. I leaned in closer to his chest, his heart went "da dum da dum da dum"
I felt the softness of his lips touch mine, his hands on the back of my head and back pulled me in closer. He was scared, I could feel his heart beat faster and faster. I pushed him off of me "Johnny--don't do this out of contempt for Fernando. Don't do it because you are scared." I stepped back but he grabbed my wrists and pulled me in, "Do you love me? If you say you don't love me right now I won't ever call you again. I won't bug you, I'll leave you alone. Do you love me?"
"Milly do you trust me?" This was not some sort of psycology class where you psycoanalyze everyone.
"Don't do this!" His hands loosened around my wrist. "Do you love me?!?!"
"Milly yes, I love you okay!!! I haven't been able to sleep without seeing you cry in my dreams. I haven't been able to stop thinking about you crying yourself to sleep everynight, and when I see you at school you look like someone ripped out your heart. Milly I am in love with a girl who has so many secrets. I am in love with a stubborn, demanding, clumsy, crude, kind, loving and beautiful redhead. I am in love with you!"
The silence passed over us, I looked at him. 'I'm not demanding, I'm not crude-- I'll admit I'm a little stubborn at times' I didn't know what my line was in this backwards Romeo and Juliet. "Milly" His hand pulled my chin up, I was forced to finally face those coacoa eyes.
"I do." I stood there in his arms, the sun warmed my back. There was always a rainbow after the storm. I found mine. "The kiss mea--" before I could finish he'd made the kiss disappear. Those warm lucid lips turned me into putty in his hands.
"Prom is tomorrow"
"I know"
"You excited?"
"Possibly"
"Haha are you?"
"Of course"
"It'll be amazing"
"You are amazing"
"I love you"
"I know"