I woke up to the smell of cologne and cigarettes, along with Eddie's arms holding me tightly. He didn't have a shirt on, but he was wearing sweatpants. He was surprisingly warm, it was extremely comforting, I adjusted myself to be closer to him and his arms wrapped around me tighter. I smiled to myself, thinking over the events of last night.
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'Eddie please, please I need more'
'No, you know what you did and you need to be taught a lesson' He said with a stern tone.
His hands slowly dragged down my bare stomach, stopping just before he could touch me. I whimpered and pleaded.
'Fuck, please I'm sorry just please touch me'
'Ah ah ah, darling. I'm going to take my time with you. Just like you did with me.' He smirked, leaning in and hovering just above my face.
'Fuck, you're so pretty like this' He said in a whisper before leaning in and kissing my neck.
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It was heavenly honestly, Eddie was amazing and he was so sweet afterward.
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'You're so beautiful, you were amazing y/n.' He hesitated as if he were going to say something else, but he didn't.
'Do you need anything? Like maybe snacks or water?' He said with a smile.
'No I'm okay, thank you though.'
Eddie then put on sweatpants and tossed me a shirt before climbing into the bed and laying down next to me. He smiled while looking into my eyes, brushing a hair out of my face.
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That had been the first time I'd slept with someone, and I was glad it had been with Eddie. He made me feel pretty and genuinely wanted. And afterward I felt cared for, like I wasn't just another person who he would want gone in the morning.
I smiled again, leaning back into his chest. He then shifted a bit before burying his face into my hair.
"Good morning sweetheart." He said with a raspy, deep voice.
His morning voice could've killed me. It sounded so pretty.
I felt him smile before gently kissing the top of my head. He then hugged me a little bit tighter, as if he didn't ever want me to leave. It was honestly endearing. I smiled, turning over to face him.
"Good morning."
We stayed like that for a while, Eddie occasionally kissed my forehead and traced figures on my back. Eventually, I tried to get up. I had gotten hungry and thought those snacks would've been nice. I tried to pull away from Eddie, but was quickly pulled back in. My face was buried in Eddie's chest.
"Nope. Not going anywhere. You're stuck with me." I could hear the smile.
"Eddie I'm hungry. I kind of want those snacks." I laughed.
"Fine." He let go of me, but not without pouting like a little kid.
I laughed at him before standing up and immediately falling back down.
"Shit."
My legs were in so much pain. I was fine laying down, but as soon as I sat or stood I was in pain. Eddie immediately became concerned and sat up, then scrambled closer to me.
"Y/n are you okay?"
"Yeah just standing up kind of hurt." I forced a laugh.
"Oh, uh hold on." He seemed nervous.
Eddie then got up and walked out of the room. I heard the freezer open, as well as the crinkling of bags. He then returned holding a bag of chips and a frozen bottle of water. He set them down on the bed before climbing on and sitting criss cross. He handed me the bottle.
"This should uhm, help with that. It's like an ice pack."
I grabbed the bottle, placing it over my abdomen. I felt immediate relief and smiled. Eddie then crawled next to me and passed me the chips.
"Sorry, I guess I went a little too hard." He looked down, obviously embarrassed. I laughed before responding.
"No Eddie it's okay, I uh, had fun." I looked over and met his eyes as he glanced up at me. He then lightly kissed my cheek before taking me back into his arms.
"I'm glad. Wait does this mean we get to stay like this?" He said, smiling hopefully.
"Yes, yes it does." I smiled back, but something felt off. I chose to ignore it, I wanted to take in as much of Eddie as possible. I had completely forgotten about the chips, focus being purely on him.
We fell back asleep. Though, every now again I would wake up due to Eddie moving or due to the pain I still felt. I would always fall back asleep quickly though. It was one of the best feelings ever, just being held by him. This time I couldn't fall back asleep though.
I was going to say something to him to wake him up, but I couldn't find the words. I was much more awake now, using this time to think for a while.
I loved the feeling of just being here, waking up in Eddie's arms, and the way he was so comforting. It felt like something was missing though. I couldn't place it but I assumed if I couldn't identify it, it wasn't that important.
About an hour had passed before I tried to get up again. I was in a lot less pain so I was hopeful. I put the water bottle aside and carefully moved Eddie's arms off of me. He must've still been asleep because he didn't wake up this time when I had moved. I then used my hands as supports and sat up. I bit the inside of my cheek to repress some of the pain. It still hurt, but not enough to stop me from doing things.
I carefully stood up.
Standing hurt a bit more, but I would be fine. I grabbed the bottle and held it over my stomach, when I was standing that was what hurt most. The bottle didn't get rid of the pain, but it definitely helped lessen it. I placed my hand against various surfaces to help me walk, which was much more difficult than I would've thought. Eventually, I got the the bathroom.
I flicked the light switch, looking at myself in the mirror above the sink.
The first thing I noticed was a trail of what looked like bruises going down my neck. I moved my shirt to the side only to find them on my chest too.
How was I supposed to hide these? Mom would kill me if she found out. She thought I was staying at a friends house. I was texted her in the car on the way back to Eddie's, he was teasing me the entire ride by putting his hand on my thigh and occasionally moving it higher. I was too distracted to think of how I was going to do this the next day.
And here I was,
With no idea. I sighed to myself, I didn't wear makeup so I couldn't use that, plus it was at home. I could try using one of Eddie's jackets that had a hood, but Mom would probably guess where I got it.
That was my best bet though. It was the only thing I could possibly get away with.
I then turned off the light and walked back over to Eddie's room slowly. I reached his side of the bed and tried to wake him up.
"Eddie, it's time to get up." I laughed to myself.
I gently shook him before he seemed to be awake. He shifted around before opening his eyes and lazily looking up at me. His entire expression brightened when he saw my face.
"Okay, I'm awake, I'm awake." He smiled, rubbing an eye before sitting up.
"I uh, need something to cover these." I turned my head and gestured toward the bruises covering my neck.
Eddie smiled with what seemed like a bit of pride.
"Yeah I have something, hold on." He got up and went over to his closet before pulling out a jacket I hadn't seen before, it had a zipper and a hoodie and was black with an AC/DC logo on it.
He passed it to me. I then put it on over his shirt, grabbing the black skirt and putting it on as well.
"Perfect. I mean you look perfect, but you can't see a thing." He smiled, planting a kiss on my forehead. I smiled, something still feeling a bit off.
"I should uh, probably get going. I need to change out of your shirt and my skirt before my mom gets home." I said, seeing his smile fade.
"Right, right, let me walk you out." He grabbed my hand and guided me to the door before opening it.
"I guess I'll see you some other time y/n?" He said, as if it were even up in the air.
"Of course Eddie, I'll see you soon." I forced a smile before stepping out.
As I heard him close the door and I walked away, I felt a tiny hole in my heart. It was a feeling I had felt before. Like I was fine with the situation, there was just some other thing bothering me. Eventually, it would probably bubble up to the surface.
But I couldn't stop it if I didn't know what it was.